"Earth as a Simulation Series 4: This Series offers MANY pages of Evidence that many Anomalous Experiences, Plus 'Exceptional' Abilities & Skills can be explained 'IF' we are Simulated copied people being Simulated with Less Advanced Technologies resulting in ourselves having Anomalous Experiences that relate to Hi-Tech Neural Implants & CNS Enhancements that the person we are simulating HAD, but which we are a long way from developing here!!!"

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1. Matt
   October 24, 2015 @ 12:44 pm

   In doing the focus I connected to ‘zoomed’ snapshots and recorded series with people (specific facial expressions, gestures or details etc) as well as with buildings and layouts (sort of like the ‘Continuum’ example).

   It also feels as if there is lots of ‘whitened out’/ blank spaced areas in between buildings as if the dimension of ‘depth’ is no longer blocked (which is how it would be in a VR, it’d be like a subtle person interfacing to the physical ‘walls’ or barriers/ boundaries would not apply).

   It feels as if I can ‘zoom out’ and get a larger map of the VR environment as you can do in video games, i.e. you’d always have a good ‘sense of direction’ and even know where others are in the VR environment etc . . .

   All of this also seems to be getting blocked/ interfered with by the ‘suppression / blocking’ software routines . . .

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   I also saw objects which were automatically ‘highlighted’ because they appeared as color-filtered in my vision (such as when I looked at some mushrooms growing).

   I can also ‘feel’ and see various ‘photoshop’ like toolkit adjustments being made or overlayed . . .

   So it seems as if the entire visual field would have an ‘analysis’ tool to look for EITHER rare or unusual visual phenomenon (as assessed / ascertained / determined by the software itself) and/or if you specifically wanted to look for and NOTICE one thing (as a higher or much higher preference to others) e.g. highlighted ‘MUSHROOMS’ then you could add this in mentally and it would put a ‘high priority’ marker and ‘highlight’ mushrooms as the most ‘salient’ feature.

   This seemed also to work with ‘ants’ and other small insects for me . . .

   In addition I saw ‘boxes’ being drawn around a flock of flying birds which would then show a number indicating the tally/count of the numbers of birds in the flock, it would also group them into ‘bunches’ (group A, group B, group C) etc . . . this enhancement would seem to particularly be able to count/classify objects that were moving quickly; e.g. ‘coming together’/ flocking and then then quickly dispersing (e.g. it works for a flying flock of birds, and also schools of fish).

   It does feels as if there could also be ‘underwater’ settings for better vision in these environments as well as ‘night vision’ settings . . . .

2. Nina
   October 26, 2015 @ 1:33 pm

   First time: When I did 1A, I remembered seeing an overlay of a user interface in my mind’s eye, but I can’t remember what I saw. All I remembered was the recent memory of me having some difficulty driving during a heavy downpour because parts of the windshield looked kind of foggy and unclear. Meanwhile, 1B gave me a brief vision of an implant gone wrong: someone installed it in me as part of a spy mission, I think. Then the handler could see whatever I was seeing. If I disobey a command, the controller can press a button that can make me close my eyes or discharge electricity that can cause pain in my eyes and blind me.

   Second time: The second to the last paragraph of 1A reminded me of camera functions and settings. I thought of filters that can change the settings of a camera’s image, like adjusting its color settings to predominantly red to give the photo a sepia hue. Right after finishing 1B, I found myself tinkering with the brightness and contrast of my new computer monitor screen because the lighting from my new computer monitor felt too glaring. (Coincidentally, I was about to read the latest content at Soul Healer when my old monitor froze and died for seemingly no reason at all. So it had to be replaced.)

   Soon I had the idea of checking for vision anomalies. I held my finger in front of me and focused on it. This caused the image of the finger to sharpen and the rest of my vision to blur. When I put down my finger, my vision became completely clear again. The closest approximation to describe my experience would be that of a photographer using a shallow depth of field (large aperture) to focus on the subject and blur the background to reduce distractions. (You can check this slideshow to learn about depth of field: http://photography.about.com/od/takingpictures/ss/DOF.htm#step2)

   I noticed that if my finger is approximately 6.5 inches away from my line of sight, I end up with two effects:
   a) Sometimes it seems as if I were seeing two fingers: my real one plus a second finger that looked like a holographic duplicate of the real one.
   b) Other times it would look as if my finger has become translucent, while the background in the distance becomes clearer and sharper.

   If I place my finger too close to my eyes, the finger is completely blurry. It’s similar to how a tiny subject (like an ant) becomes blurry if you zoom your camera in macro function mode too much.

   I was reminded of the vision anomalies that I experience in the bathroom. If I sit in the toilet bowl without focusing on any particular object, my vision blurs gradually, much like how the image on a digital camera screen is blurry if you have not adjusted its zoom by half-pressing it. Other times, when I focus on a particular detail in front of me, like the vertical wood decor in front of me, it would seem that the horizontal lines were moving or “dancing,” as if I were seeing an optical illusion.

   Another vision anomaly I remember is that I see hexagons or white dots when I’m in areas with very bright sunlight and hot weather. This reminded me of hexagons or specks that sometimes appear on the display screen of my camera when I try to take photos on very hot days.

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   The closest I had imagined my user interface do was scanning and focusing on the people who interact with me so I could gather as much data as possible about them and know how to interact with them. For people that I regularly interact with, this meant updating my knowledge of his / her profile to keep my personal database current.

   Also, I can’t remember if I experienced any vision anomalies during the nine years I spent in glasses before undergoing LASIK surgery in 2007 to restore my vision. (I used to be myopic with a bit of astigmatism.) There’s a particular memory I had somewhere in 2004 or 2005, which I tend to doubt up to now. I was on the foot of the Cavalry section of Mt. Banahaw, which featured three crosses at the top to represent the crucifixion of Christ. The weather was rainy, the view was somewhat misty, and the rocky trail was slippery, so the guide asked me to tuck my glasses into my shirt to avoid breaking it. This worried me, but I did as told. Surprisingly, my vision became mysteriously clear while trekking to the top. I was amazed that I did not lose my balance or accidentally trip and fall along the way. At that time, I thought I experienced a “miracle” because I was in a mystical mountain where pilgrims flock for healing and devotion. Now I wonder if it was a vision anomaly or plain “nearsightedness.”

3. Rup
   October 26, 2015 @ 7:58 pm

   something i did once was to close my eyes and notice the darkness and i had created a pencil/stick to poke myself in the field of vision and the stick would come a certain distance and distort, eventually i did manage to poke it and boy was that a trip. all i could say was my single reality attachment was broken. took awhile to settle down (i felt i’d broken something and all this other weird stuff was happening at the time) it felt like a lot of rubbish was being dumped in my field of vision on the right side.

   • Clive
     October 27, 2015 @ 10:49 am

     Could do with more detail of this Rup!!!

4. Iris
   October 28, 2015 @ 12:28 pm

   Doing the focuses triggered a few memories related to blurry images:

   A) In the past, whenever I read the comment of my crush on a forum I used to frequent, the profile picture beside his name would become blurry whenever I felt embarrassed and vulnerable about being infatuated with him. It felt as if I were subconsciously blurring his image so I could focus on what he was writing and avoid being distracted by his handsome looks. Yet everything else in the screen remained clear to me.

   B) Before engaging in cybersex, my online partner moved his web cam from his desk to a higher vantage point (not sure if it was on the ceiling or on a shelf) so that I could see him while he was lying down naked on his bed. Oddly, the view from his camera was semi-whitish and blurry, as if his room were shrouded in fog. Yet his web cam worked perfectly fine. I could still see him clearly when the web cam was positioned in front of his face, and he could see my naked body clearly through his web cam. Looking back, it felt as if I had a censor that automatically blurred anything I was not supposed to see (i.e. graphic, perverse, taboo “pornographic,” “sinful”, etc.)

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   Other vision anomalies that I remember while reading the other Soul Healer pages:

   1. When looking at static photos of 3D shapes, I imagine them moving or popping out, as if I were wearing 3D glasses and watching a 3D video clip.

   2. If I see white dots against a black background, I tend to imagine the dots moving around as if they were will o’ wisps or dots on a radar screen or user interface.

   3. One time, when reading content on the Soul Healer site, it would look as if the words parted away like the Red Sea, and the rest of my vision blurred. Not sure if I really remember this correctly — I feel as if I were making this up.

   4. Sometimes, when reading text, it would seem as if there were shadows behind the words. Yet I have no astigmatism.

   5. When I squeeze my eyes too much before re-opening them, my vision temporarily blurs until my eyes gradually re-establishes their focus and my vision becomes clear again.

   6. I remember seeing faces on rocks while hiking briskly in a mountain.

5. Kay
   October 29, 2015 @ 12:13 pm

   1st Focus above – 1A
   I felt many overlays/screens of which the ‘visual’ was just one. I also felt that each was a separate vr ‘space’ that i could interact with, jump ‘into’ and work with that and it would pilot my body with those specific ‘sense’ settings. Also that the body would configure itself to function as directed according to what settings were in the template i was using. Change the active template and my body perceptions, look, feel, material and so on would change as well…all very ‘liquid’ like like Mercury. Also in writing this i feel like i have forgotten i could change ‘templates’ at will. Which is really strange and that idea/concept is also ‘fading’ rapidly.

   2nd focus – 1B
   I felt a Borg style implant over my left eye and felt the neuroweaves in the back of my neck. These are the two areas where i get severe migraines coming from. When connecting to the ‘design’/’installation’ i have a weird metal/electric/surgical sensation over the left side of my face and my missing teeth on the left side of my mouth start to hurt and now feel like they are bleeding/releasing something. My face feels much smaller when this is going on and i am having a headache building in the third area above my right eye.

   In examining the neuroweave more directly it is a fine membrane which uses harmonics to transmit and receive information from my real body (subtle) to my physical avatar. this allows for very fine control of the form as it can react to the tiniest change in my subtle form energy signature.

   Overall
   This all feels like it is all behind a soft ‘barrier’/’filter’ which prevents it directly ‘appearing’/’manifesting’. It keeps it ‘in my mind’ so it isn’t ‘real’, can be dismissed etc. But also it interferes with my subtle energy form ‘signals’ as well…so they cannot ‘reach’ the controls and only get the vaguest of impressions from the more complex (non-ape) senses.

   While nothing is visually appearing i have noticed throughout today (even before the focus) that i could see inside a bag with my hand in it. I could ‘see’ the item with my fingers…the sense of touch populate the visual environment data instead of my eyes. This is not surprising at all to me as i am very synaesthetic. My sense are AND FEEL LIKE THEY SHOULD BE interchangeable. I have had a great many experiences of tasting or smelling things at a distance where there was no way i could detect smell/taste with my nose.

   It took me a couple of hours to build up to do this focus as i felt some mild depression around it before i started.

   Also i get the feeling that when i have overheard things which relate to me it is more that i hear everything and an internal filter flags it as relevant and so brings it to my conscious attention. Same with vision, all the external data populates a live dataset of the world and an AI manager/filter flags anything ‘important’ or ‘out of place’. It is this which allows me to ‘feel’ when something is wrong with the ‘data’, whatever that data might be, and hunt it down to a root cause.

   Also, ‘vision’ for me, specifically in regards to vr technologies and so on is not the primary detection system i use. It is ‘feel’/’resonance’ of which ‘vision’ is one interpretation/sub category/translation of a certain group of sensory data. Reminds me of how blind people ‘see’ and ‘read’ using Braille, the sim translating a ‘feel’ based system into an ape-avatar applicable form perhaps?

   I am now getting flashes of code/characters at the far left edge of my visual field and this has just been dismissed/covered up as a reflection of the active bulb in my room. There are numerous times when i have had dark and light flashes like this on the periphery of my visual field which turn out to be insignificant shadows when actively focused on…except shadows and reflections do not behave like that otherwise i would be constantly freaking out at them ALL THE TIME!

   about 30 mins later
   I am getting internal ‘vision’ overlays of an advanced information display bringing up things like chemical composition, 3d renders of items and so on. Except this is appearing on my internal ‘imagination’ screen NOT my actual physical vision which is WRONG. I suppose it ‘could’ be a vr interface and so rendered in the internal vr space but the information/readings are more about physical properties…there is NO chemical composition of a vr mesh….it is a mesh! I just feel like the rendering of certain things has been re-routed into a ‘safer’ context. Also all the information is ‘steady’ until i focus on it and then it jumbles up so i cannot make anything out…or…more like ephasia actually. like my concepts of what the readouts are saying, what the individual characters ‘mean’ is jumbled. Also i am suspicious of the whole concept of using ‘characters’ to display information…i do not work like that, my technology works by ‘feel’ / ‘resonance’ and i just ‘know’ what something is because i recognise the feel of it. The idea of using a ‘readout’ to display a phonetic representation of information is down right archaic. Who the hell does THAT any more?

   This reminded me of the projects that have gone on which created user interface devices…an interesting one is the mouse:

   https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mouse_%28computing%29

   specifically the ‘haptic’ one invented in 2000.

   In 2000, Logitech introduced a “tactile mouse” that contained a small actuator to make the mouse vibrate. Such a mouse can augment user-interfaces with haptic feedback, such as giving feedback when crossing a window boundary. To surf by touch requires the user to be able to feel depth or hardness; this ability was realized with the first electrorheological tactile mice[42] but never marketed.

   Now THAT is a technology which would have blurred the boundary and given people a possible glimpse at how their ‘feel’ of equipment is actually a simulation of this kind of device. No wonder it was not marketed…

   another interesting quote:

   The invention of the mouse was just a small part of Engelbart’s much larger project, aimed at augmenting human intellect via the Augmentation Research Center.

   ‘Augmentation Research Centre!…seriously! Who the hell names a simple computer interface development lab as something with a context aimed so obviously at adding something ONTO the subtle/physical form rather than adding something onto the computer to work with it. TOTALLY the wrong context for ‘here’.

6. Annabelle
   November 2, 2015 @ 3:48 am

   1st Attempt Focus 1A. Very difficult to concentrate and significant headache. Feeling like I am a giant in a doll house. Disorientated. This is not letting me through.
   2 days later
   2nd and 3rd Attempt 1A. Could not see the purple accordion buttons on this page. Kept trying. Significant headache again and nauseated. I never get headaches. I had my vision surgically modified for mono vision years ago due to incredible poor eye sight. This may be making it difficult to focus. While trying to read this, a drone bug appeared out of no where. The bug was flying all over the room and crashing into objects. It came and swarmed around my head and I was so frustrated I went to get a fly swatter. When I returned the bug was dead and lying on my tablet!
   Electrical objects appear to have faces in them like the ceiling fan had a big smiling face and the iron looked like a reptile face and the floor lamp looks like a giraffe. It it impossible to type.
   Will try again soon. Wish I had something more impressive to report. Can,t even get to 1B

   • Clive
     November 2, 2015 @ 2:12 pm

     Just being able to do focus 1A is impressive enough Annabella. Haha!!!

     It’s possible you are simulating someone that had remote visual fly/bug ‘drones’ and they were your ‘vision’. You’d then use less and less of your normal eyesight ‘eye’ focused vision, so you’d be simulating someone with ‘atrophied, real’ eyesight vision, which would translate as poor vision here.

     Flying robot bugs for ‘spying’ are some of the remote ‘robots’ currently being developed. Some google bug robot pictures are here. So, it wouldn’t be long in here (a few more decades) before you’d have someone with a squadron of ‘bugs’ directly interfaced to an internal controlling GUI system.

7. Nina
   November 5, 2015 @ 3:52 am

   I did the focuses here after noticing an “anomalous object” on the wall beside my bedside lamp. It took me around 30 seconds to recognize the “object” as a cockroach, not as chipped off wood as was my initial assessment. This is in contrast to my scripted expectations that I should be able to recognize cockroaches in dimly lit rooms in a matter of split seconds as a result of accumulated experiences related to killing cockroaches in my bathroom with slippers or insect spray. So it felt as if there was a delay in my mental processing.

   1A — I accessed what felt like enhanced night vision, which was supposed to include a device or implant that detects small nocturnal animals like cockroaches, mice, and frogs when walking in the streets or on trails at night. I began to feel that the delayed reaction was caused by scanning or analyzing anything I find suspicious, then going over previously recorded experiences of “anomalous objects” to identify the suspicious object or animal that’s currently in front of me before taking the appropriate action.

   1B — I remembered that I needed very little light to navigate my way across dark paths. (I cannot walk in completely dark areas though — I’d need a flashlight for that.) In the Walking Dead haunted house in Ocean Park (which I entered this Oct 30), I was not disoriented by flashing strobe lights as long as I had a couple of seconds to adjust my vision accordingly and as long as I knew what surprises possibly awaited me by observing the people in front of me. I spotted most of the zombies even if they were hidden in dark corners, and I could identify potential areas where scary animatronics could pop up or where zombies could be hiding (like sliding windows disguised as wall decor).

   Despite having these abilities and despite knowing everything inside the haunted attraction was fake, I was scared — to the point that I automatically found myself assuming a cat-like stance throughout the ordeal: hunched back, hands ready to “scratch” any potential assailant, and giving off high-pitched meows when frightened. To this day, all I remember is brief flashes of scary imagery. Much of my memories have been blotted out by fear and terror.

   Recently I began to feel that my “human” peripheral vision, which is only 180 degrees, is more limited compared to that of a cat’s 200 degrees visual field. As a simulated human, I have to turn my neck if I want to expand my vision, whereas cats merely use their eyes to scan their immediate surroundings.

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   The link on bug robot pictures reminded me of the ones I saw in the film Minority Report. These bug robots, if I remember correctly, could scan people’s irises, which makes them useful for tracking criminals for example.

   Annabelle’s comment on the drone bug and Clive’s mention of flying robot bugs for “spying” reminded me of the times that cockroaches appeared whenever my thoughts drifted to any thinking areas the simulation software didn’t want me to think about, like looping emotions or thoughts that play out whenever I think of future plans with the awareness that I am a simulated person in a simulated world antagonistic to everyone. Sometimes the cockroaches appear while trying to pay attention to hidden subtle or simulation software manipulations, like suspicious or anomalous thoughts, events, or interactions with others.

8. Annabelle
   November 8, 2015 @ 11:08 pm

   I managed to make it thru focus 1A several times now. Wondered if doing it with glasses on was causing the headaches , and losing the glasses helped.
   Again, a large disgusting looking flying bug started swarming in my face and eyes , and it is too cold here for bugs. The bug then flew circles around my tablet and I finally has to swat it , a mess, stop what I am doing and clean up. Did the focus.

   1. That evening after going to bed, I saw a fluorescent , greenish yellow, sparkling, object on the ceiling at position 11 o’clock with respect to my body. My room is pitch black and clean of any electrical items – nothing. The object was floating parallel to the ceiling , about 3ft by 1ft wide. It appears to pulse a little, like an amoeba but did not move around. I closed my eyes and just black. Opened them and it was still there. Tilted my head and rotated my eyes and it stayed in position. Repeated all of this several times and it did not change. Now I am used to creatures in my room for decades and could write a book about this. I told it to leave and nothing happened. Then I asked it if it was going to bother me- silly me. It said no. I pulled the sheets over my head and went to sleep.

   2. Each time I access this exercise or any focus I have an unusual shadow on electronic devices. Everything is still clear, but I see a bright red shadow on the left side of the image ( right actual side , face , body, of a person on tv). All structures on the tv screen have the shadow – everything. The red shadow is on all symbols , numbers on spreadsheets, all words on my phone, all lines on computer screens, phones, extended monitors, mine or others in any building. This lasts about 2 days. Since I do the focuses a lot it is almost always there, particularly after visiting the site.
   I tried to find an example of what this looks like and found this image of Marilyn Monroe on http://www.emptyeasel.com. It looks exactly like that.
   More to come …….

   • Clive
     November 9, 2015 @ 2:56 pm

     I think you’ve the wrong image page URL Annabella no image of MM is on that page (at least not now).

9. Annabelle
   November 9, 2015 @ 5:38 pm

   I know. It is gone now. This is the best I can find now

   http://m.aliexpress.com/item/32399502779.html

   Search for Andy Warhol Marilyn Monroe
   Portrait print on canvas
   Switch the red color shadow to the right actual side of the face and remove the green.

10. Nina
    November 13, 2015 @ 3:41 am

    I did the focus two days ago.

    1A — I connected to a pair of sunglasses that serves as a high-tech version of a guide book. It has the following features:

    * interactive map — shows me the overview of a particular geographic area (city, town, theme park, etc.)

    * navigator — presumably for instructing users on how to arrive at a specific place from their current starting point. It includes warnings on how NOT to conduct myself in a specific area.

    * camera with audio-video recording capacities — take snapshots, audio, or video recordings of any scene I find interesting

    For example, if I pass by a building of special / historic importance, the glasses will identify the building and I can read the text display that appear inside the glasses. If the building is a ruin, the glasses can display a virtual rendition of what the building originally looked like when it was still brand-new centuries ago. I think it’s possible to have the information rendered in audio if you hate reading text through the glasses.

    I figured that the original population we are simulating probably had interactive maps, which you can download into your device or implant before traveling somewhere.

    In the earth simulation, the slowed-down technological equivalent of the glasses would be paper maps, lightweight guide books, cameras (DSLR, point-and-shoot, or the one you find in smartphones) and “intuitive” feelings of fear towards performing certain actions, like taking photos in certain locations before I read the “no photography” sign.

    Also, I connected to high-tech cars with automated GPS that can emit holograms of maps when needed and built-in automated voices that tell you where to drive when in unfamiliar places. It’s like having the Waze traffic app and Siri on your car.

    1B — I gained access to a heads-up display (HUD) inside a futuristic vehicle. It had a user interface with the following functions:

    – odometer for computing distance traveled
    – language translator
    – navigator with built-in camera and freeze frame function
    – text display and numbers
    – color of screen display: blue if neutral / ok, red if in danger
    – metric to mile conversion
    – interactive holographic map projecting from the user interface

    I connected to the simulated equivalent of people who were “directly indirectly involved in installing and or designing absolutely any implant and/or enhancement,” such as mobile app developers, optics developers, salespeople for telescopic lens in cameras, binoculars, spotting scopes, optometrists, and ophthalmologists who can perform eye surgery.
    The blueprints that I have connected to included manuals for cameras and binoculars.

    At some point, I began to wonder whether my original subtle form had interfaced to giant robots similar to the ones I have seen in Japanese and Western animation or live action films (like the Transformers). But I did not receive much data about it.

    ——————————————————

    Some time after doing the focus, I chanced upon an animated battle scene between two characters. I began to notice different animation tricks, such as:

    – Background scene is slightly blurred compared to the characters, which have more details and have sharper colors. The objects that they use are also more sharply rendered.

    – Shortcuts: In scenes where the character talks, only the mouth moves, while the rest of the face is still. In another scene, the villain ‘s body and hand does not move at all while conjuring a black energy ball from his palm. The only sign of movement in the scenes the purplish lines moving towards the glowing ball.

    – recycled backgrounds: Some backgrounds are re-used to save costs in animation.

    I think some of the animation series I have watched so far represented VRs that the person I am simulating may have traveled in its original script. It’s possible that theater, film, games, live-action series, and animation are among the earliest form of simulations in the sense that these media create believable worlds for the audience to immerse themselves into.

    At one point, I thought of my reality as a VR where the sim designer would animate the movements I make and add lots of background noise (like the traffic outside my room) while inanimate objects remain static.

    • Clive
      November 13, 2015 @ 4:45 pm

      Very interesting Nina!!

11. Annabelle
    November 14, 2015 @ 2:37 am

    I repeated the focus today and 5 hours later noticed this out of no where.

    While working on the computer, zoned out listening to music, on head phones, I noticed a rotating bright spot out of my left peripheral vision. It was about 1 inch in diameter at 7 o’clock, very bright, and had a distinct wood saw tooth outline. It rotated counter clockwise. The saw teeth were silver , mercury colored, and the center was fluorescent yellow. This rotating object starting to become larger and I turned my head to see if I could see it out if my right eye – yes. As the object became larger, about 5 inches diameter, it started to flicker at 10 times per second and still rotated counter clockwise. It continued to enlarge and soon was 4 ft wide and centered around me. I could now see thru it and the rotating and flickering wheel surrounded me like a cocoon. The brightness, rotating and flickering flourescent yellow flashing lights were impressive, and a bit nauseating. I knew I had to drive soon, so I turned everything off and went for a walk , and it stayed with me , surrounding me, as I walked thru many rooms. The rotating peripheral silver saw tooth part of this wheel caused blurred vision but I could see clearly thru the middle. I tried to shake this off and it started to fade. It was gone in about one hour.

    • Clive
      November 14, 2015 @ 10:24 am

      This is likely some VR monitoring drone Annabella. Possibly an environment/rendering VR admin unit tracking people working as environmental ‘testers’ within the EAAS project. Hence it’s following you from room to room. It might even be monitoring your awareness of and or your sub-conscious responses to ‘anomalies’ because it’s likely the original population was being messed with to NOT notice anomalies too (the drone shit does this) in which case and SPECIFICALLY for EAAS project testers they’d have monitors monitoring the testers for subliminal / subconscious signs of ‘anomalies’ which on detection are likely then to result in a ‘patch’ being applied to your VR avatar self (and other VR testers) to amplify/highlight these subliminal / often ignored awarenesses. Hence HERE you are very sensitive to them. Haha

    • Tim
      November 22, 2015 @ 9:21 am

      Annabelle — YES! These damned things, exactly as you describe, keep getting in the way when I’m able to connect with “Original Me.” He’s told me they’re AI daemons (in the computer program context, not the scary-evil-creature context) that monitor communications/activity/etc.

      I could easily spend the next hour writing about what I’ve been calling the Blobs (though sawtoothed wheel is far more accurately descriptive) and trying to find avoidances/workarounds. Let it suffice for now to say that you’re not the only one for whom these things are causing problems.

      • Clive
        November 22, 2015 @ 12:47 pm

        Hey Tim, and ‘AI Daemons’ in the context of you likely simulating someone that was a ‘hacker’ (likely of VR networks) as I described in reply to your other comment here would ‘FIT’ perfectly wouldn’t it? For ‘worrying’ people the sim searchers though your script to look for anything it can use to cause you problems.

        • Tim
          November 22, 2015 @ 8:51 pm

          That makes a lot of sense, particularly considering my background/life path here. It’s food for thought — and may help inform future knowledge/communication techniques. Thanks.

12. Michael Lewis
    November 21, 2015 @ 8:47 pm

    Hello Clive,

    As i read your site and try to do this exercise, i get really tired very fast and want to turn away, i feel like a blanket of cords is on my body slowing pulling away all my energy to read and pay attention.

    Weird

    • Clive
      November 22, 2015 @ 12:16 pm

      It’s the sims SOP (Standard Operating Protocol) Michael. This last ‘enhancement’ series and particularly since starting the memory pages and PARTICULARLY since I put up the memory exercise page has resulted in amped/ramped up suppression effects. This is because copied people will ALL have many anomalous memories and I’ve ‘nicely’ explained this in very logical/simple detail ‘why’ PLUS the sim also relies on FADING out memories of things it DOESN’T like as a BIG part of it’s ‘maintaining ‘CONTAINED’ understandings’ efforts. My site traffic has also strongly dropped since the WORRYING MEMORY exercise was put up – I’ve got it on the run now – HAHA.

      • Clive
        November 22, 2015 @ 12:18 pm

        From the above ‘EVERYONE’ interested in this site: MAKE A BIG effort to work with this memory EXERCISE page. ‘BECAUSE’ the sim doesn’t want people doing this!!!

      • Trent
        November 22, 2015 @ 1:26 pm

        It’s interesting to hear that your site traffic has dropped – i’ve been thinking for the last week or so that it seems ‘site engagement’ has actually improved with the release of this new ‘series’. There seem to be more comments more often lately.

        • Clive
          November 22, 2015 @ 1:59 pm

          True BUT the comments are likely mostly from people that were already returning to the site because they were already interested in what I’m writing (my super strong binding spells are obviously working – hahahahaha!!!! – I’m KIDDING ‘obviously’. My search engine traffic bounces around 260 visitors a day (give or take 10/20). Yesterday it was 186 and the day before it was 170 (about a 35% drop)!!! Trent read my expanded reply to your previous comment here.

13. mo
    November 24, 2015 @ 11:54 am

    Okay tried exercise again.

    Shortly into version 1.3 i started to see a really dreary environment, like a dripping cave which stores prisoners, I was one of them or perhaps a voodoo of me, repeatedly getting my eyes torn out of the sockets, getting kicked the more I read on. Perhaps this was just harassment. So continuing I get lead out. But then I read the old version 1.1 seems like there was more tracking and then at last you know that moment where you get to say ‘I see you’. YUP, don’t try running’ from me no more, your exposed! Not much was done from there but there is a clear register on where some of this crap is coming from now perhaps? Or maybe this was all just a false memory (; who am I to tell these days!

    .. Wanted to note on the site traffic. When accessing this website through my computer I am not able to through ANY browser, except through firefox ‘private window’ browser, for whatever reason. But even today I was having issues with that, with me unable to access the site for an earlier period in the day.. Just a note, it may be some technological interference going on.

    • Clive
      November 24, 2015 @ 2:15 pm

      Hi Mo, the first part sounds like some ‘scripted’ VR re-programming you are being facilitated to access likely to put you off from what is presented here.

      For the second site accessing problems part try the following (read / carry out 2/3 repetitions of the below) also EVERYONE ELSE that has an interest in this site use this too . . . I’ll add it to the bottom of each exercise page (there is NOW a better version at the bottom of EXERCISE 1 & 2 pages (above this comment) now and I’ll add it to future exercise pages too) . . .

      “I fully and absolutely, completely connect NOW to absolutely ALL combinations of data, script and or sim components that are directly or indirectly in the slightest contributing to or are responsible for myself having absolutely any problems, distractions, diversions, blocks, sabotages and or absolutely any other type of ‘put off’s’ to finding, coming to, accessing, easily reading and or understanding absolutely any page on this site and or which is contributing to or responsible for causing me to have absolutely ANY difficulties, taking in, integrating, understanding, recalling and or easily discussing and or conveying to absolutely any others absolutely any information I encounter on this site . . . ”

      • mo
        November 25, 2015 @ 10:42 pm

        Thank you Clive for the words to help with site issues. I will keep doing it. I will admit that I will never be put off by your site because I love it so much.. But I am unable to be on it at certain times as I know it is like asking to get punched. When I woke up the next day after doing this, my eyes looked blood shot and f**** up as if what happened in my vision from this previous exercise actually happened LOL…. I am so tired and done with all of this bullshit!!!!!!!!!!

14. Annabelle
    January 1, 2016 @ 1:59 am

    Attempt 6
    Immediately connected with a person wearing dark round glasses in the bottom left hand corner of a pitch-black background. (It is always a black background)
    The person just stood there and I waited and tried to feel into this. A large apple tree then appeared at 3 o’clock, full of red apples. The person seemed to say, “Let me show you what I can do with these glasses.” A pair of dotted lines flew out from the glasses and surrounded the apple tree like a computer screenshot / clipping program. Once clipped, the apple tree data started to display. It displayed the size of the apple tree, numbers of apples, size of each apple, etc. The person implied, as needed, you could get additional information such as:
    • If you were to sell each apples for $X how much would you earn on the whole tree
    • It you needed to pick each apple it would fit into “X” number of crates and take “X” hours to pick / pack
    • The tree would produce “X” number of apples this season
    • Etc. etc.
    I felt a bit disappointed that I had been shown a simple example “ Dummies 101” of this focus. I then waited to see what the person would do and they turned around and hid their face. Kept waiting and tried to coax them into showing me more. They seemed to imply that “they were not allowed to talk about this stuff”. I waited and then they turned around and had a very scary face and I lost focus.

    Part 2:
    Against another black background, connected to a black door outlined in a thin line of glowing primary colors of light. After looking at the psychedelic examples in a recent comment, I realized I was starting to “tunnel” thru a series of infinite number of black closed doors all outlined in a thin line of glowing primary colors (red, blue, green and yellow) Nothing came of this. I then saw a series of 4-5 moving escalator steps moving up to the right a 2 o’clock. This series of steps started to infinitely replicate.

    Attempt 7
    In the upper left hand corner of a black background I connected with a gold circle about 4 inches in diameter. The gold circle contained an 18-20 point star. The star contained a blinking eyeball. I waited and tried to feel into this. Then very quickly, this whole circle / eyeball assembly moved down and a series of clear pipes appeared on the right side of the black background. The circle / eyeball combination went inside the clear pipe network that criss-crossed infinitely. The circle was moving very fast inside the pipe network and bounced around as if inside a pinball machine.
    Will keep on trying.

    • Clive
      January 1, 2016 @ 12:12 pm

      Annabelle, the ‘repeating’ views could be some ‘overlaid’ recursive / fractal / repeating image function the sim is mixing in with the rest to make it all confusing.

      Matt has mentioned that he has an ‘instant’ visual object ‘counting’ facility. Like he’ll just ‘know’ the number of birds or ‘sheep’ or in your case apples in a ‘scene’ he’s viewing.

15. Nyssa
    January 28, 2016 @ 6:16 pm

    Unlike prior posts I’ve made using your exercises, Clive, I have significantly fewer bodily sensations; this exercise feels predominantly experienced in my inner field of vision.

    PART ONE
    When I read the first two paragraphs it felt delayed, like the words of the exercise were bringing data from deep storage. I feel something is visible in my inner field of view, but it’s very hard to make out what I’m seeing. The space feels very dark – very faint impressions. But feels like a 3d space.

    My eyes feel pressured, like my eyeballs have an internal buildup of fluid.

    Then my eyes begin to move like the head of a hard drive, and slowly in the darkness of my inner field of view I see what looks something like binary data.. not exactly, but that’s the best description I can think of, and it’s filling my inner field of view. Annabelle (or someone?) posted an image of something like this, but what I see in my inner view doesn’t seem to be comprised of characters like she posted. It feels more digitized.

    In the fourth paragraph, my eyes continue to move like a hard drive head, but it’s dark again. I have to state, “I want to SEE this” a couple times, and I can see the data again. It appears to be moving, and on the right hand side of my field of view, it looks like the data is wrapping around a spindle, or perhaps just moving around an edge in the distance, located near the center of my field of view.

    After the next paragraph, I repeat “I want to see this, I want to feel this, I want to understand this” and I now see what looks like an entire row of these apparent “spindles” of data receding from my point of view. It’s on the right hand side of my field of view, and the arrangement looks somewhat like this image if the image were rotated counterclockwise (and the data is wrapped around the spindle in sheets like this instead of the thread).

    I now ask “what does this represent,” and now I began to see what seems like a transparent sheet in front of this “data spindle” setup. On this single sheet, overlayed on the other image, I see data flowing downwards. This data seems to have the “characters”, and be less binary in form.

    I lost my place in the exercise, and end up re-reading this paragraph, and again, it’s dark. I have to state again, “I want to see this, feel this, understand this. What does this represent??” and I feel annoyed.

    But this time, the same scene quickly appears again, and this time, I see what look like laser beams of light coming in from the left side of my field of vision, highlighting or tagging or selecting the various character bits on the overlayed field of data.

    After the next paragraph, it’s dark AGAIN. I have to state I WANT TO SEE THIS over and over as I continue to read through the rest of the exercise.

    I notice two things as I haltingly proceed through the exercise:

    1) I see what appears to be a mine cart that zooms up towards me in the center of my field of view, past all the spindles, and parks just behind the overlaid image. What looks like the data that had been selected from the overlay is dumped into the minecart, and the minecart departs into the distance again. This repeats over and over every time I’m able to “see”.

    2) I notice that when it’s black, my eyes are moving rapidly like the hard drive head. But when I set my intention to “I want to SEE godammit!!,” my eyes slow down to just an occasional flicker. I move back and forth between these two experiences, seeing the data selection and minecart, and then blackness and eyes moving rapidly, and it begins to feel like when I am choosing to SEE, I am slowing down a data recall process down to a point where it can be rendered and observed.

    PART TWO
    The first paragraph, my inner viewing space is black again for me, so I repeat my intentions over and over. I begin to faintly see what appears to be a room of people busily working, moving paper files here and there. I feel like I am an object in the room – no one notices me. I am stationary. I feel like an object. I have to use a lot of repetition of my intention to view this – it keeps fading. But when I do see them, I also begin to say things like “I want to experience I want to feel I want to participate”, and I can see the people again and I begin to feel bodily sensations like heart warmth and some sacral activation. I keep doing this and the experience suggests that I am trying to feel like I am human, but keep fading back to being a machine.

    At the second paragraph, I feel numb and black, but I read it a second time and I’m overcome with helpless despair and grief and horror, like I’ve accessed a horrible memory. I’m crying too much try to think about what this memory is at first.

    I come back to the exercise after awhile, stating my intent, and now I’m in a chair and I watch people lean over me, dispassionately, and they take out an eyeball, and then the other eyeball and it’s black now. I feel them remove other parts of me.

    I scream until they cut my vocal cords.

    I am filled with fear and my adrenaline is pumping.

    I feel something inserted into the base of my skull. My brain feels exposed, and like probes or wires are being inserted.

    I feel wires and probes inserted into my ears. It hurts so badly. Now there’s no sound. I can’t hear.

    I feel trapped inside my own body.

    I feel like someone had told me he would save me from this. That he wouldn’t let this happen. I feel anger and confusion and betrayal.

    I read the next paragraph, and I am back at the scene with people dispassionately leaning over me just before my eyes are removed, and it’s people whom I know here in the simulation. I know these people. I’m looking at one of them. I know him both in real life, and in the memory. And in the memory, it feels like he had told me he would stop this from happening (just like in this life here in the simulation he’d promised something to me, but then he did the exact opposite).

    I’m in the chair watching him lean over me, and I feel like he’d promised he’d get me out of whatever situation / etc. that has led to this horror. But here he is, MAKING it happen. DOING this to me.

    There’s other people there too, that I know here now in the simulation, but I don’t feel like I knew them then. They are assisting him. (And I know that he is working with them here in the simulation.)

    After I calm down, I read the paragraph again, and I feel like I’m back in the scene where I am the stationary observer in the room. I see someone walk over and he bends down and peers at me. It’s like I’m in a box with a viewing lens. I watch him put his eye up close to my lens.

    It’s him. He’s showing me something. Some papers or files. I hear him talk to me: “Here Nyssa, look at this. I’m not supposed to show you this. But go see what you can find on this.”

    Then a bit later it’s like a series of conversation snippets, that changes like shifting sands. The feeling of it is like he’s trying to come to terms with his role in my circumstance, appease his guilt, or wheedle his way out of something, or come up with a “new angle” to “soften me up”.

    I hear “I’m so sorry I didn’t mean this to happen, I tried, I really tried. I was forced. It was out of my hands.”

    Then “Nyssa, you know this was the only way. We had to have someone on the inside to access the deep files, to figure out what is going on.”

    Then “Nyssa my love, what they did to you. To ME! They took you from me!”

    “Nyssa, I need the files so I can rescue you! I am trying to figure it out!”

    It goes on and on.

    I feel hatred and disgust for him. I feel like all the apologies in the world can’t bring me back.

    As I read the last part of this exercise, I feel myself now viewing him warily. It feels that I began to observe the pattern of his actions, and I realize it never changes. Empty promises, designed to manipulate me for his own purposes. He never intends to save me, just like he never intended to stop me from becoming this box that I feel that I am.

    I now re-read the last paragraph one last time, and it now feels like my “own” search parameters. Like this exercise is a search parameter, and I am inputting this search parameter into myself, and I am creating a private data storage “somewhere” of my own accumulated knowledge and data. The sense I have is it feels like I decided to start “figuring out what is going on” by myself.

    With this shift in experience in the exercise, I go back and read more of the exercise again, and I can see the data field again, and the minecart, and occasionally I see a batch of data move quickly back out from the minecart to another location before the minecart recedes, and I faintly sense where the data batch moves, deep in the recesses of my body. I can feel myself paying attention to how this glitchy behavior is received by the users, and I sense that I executed coverup behavior to pacify them, giving them obvious reasons for data glitches so my personal doings would not be noticed.

    A final read of the last couple paragraphs, and this time it feels like I have all the design blueprints safely stored away in my own private cache.

    —
    Clive, thank you for your reply to my latest post on Exercise 5. I feel numbed today and that I am not through this hard stuff yet, but in a state that I feel able to attempt another exercise this morning. It appears my results are again anomalous though.

    • Clive
      January 29, 2016 @ 10:10 am

      Hi Nyssa,

      MMmmm, this took a bit of figuring out. The ‘C’ culture are viewed by most other cultures as ‘mad dogs’, they are not to be trusted / must be approached with EXTREME caution.

      So, if your culture is sending in someone to work on the EAAS a simulation project AND this culture knows the risks involved then they WILL adapt / firewall / sandbox the person doing the infiltration. They will also wipe their memories (which are easily accessed because you’d have memories of involving yourself in the project as a ‘plant / spy’ which would be ‘unhelpful / a security risk’!!!). I already know at least two other people that custom designed their own internal security systems in attempts to keep themselves completely secure for when they signed up for the EAAS project (so doing these ‘extreme’ things are not uncommon). So, they ‘WOULD’ have been friends / colleagues . . .

      So, what you write in your comment is the experiences of the person you are simulating of your culture of origins EAAS project infiltration team and specifically of when they ‘decided’ that they have to make seriously ‘containing’ adaptations / security changes to yourself in attempts to try and keep you and the details of your origins / what you were there to ‘really’ do as hidden and as secure as possible.

      Also, you have to remember that these adaptations are being done ‘specifically’ to your subtle body and the interfacing to the physical form that would ‘walk into / sign up to help’ the EAAS project. So, these things are being done to also keep your ‘subtle’ form and it’s subtle location as safe as possible.

      “I see a batch of data move quickly back out from the minecart to another location before the minecart recedes, and I faintly sense where the data batch moves, deep in the recesses of my body. I can feel myself paying attention to how this glitchy behavior is received by the users, and I sense that I executed cover-up behavior to pacify them, giving them obvious reasons for data glitches so my personal doings would not be noticed.”

      The ‘minecart’ symbolically represents part of this ‘extreme’ security system, which is distributing sensitive data by carting it off in ‘batches’ to different secure / firewalled locations within yourself while also simultaneously trying to present a coherent ‘front / face’ in attempts to try and keep hidden these ‘anomalous’ functions (“there’s nothing ‘significant’ happening here ‘honest'”).

      This is the sort of ‘scripted’ data with extreme protection inclusive of built in miss-directions that for anyone ‘investigating’ you would have made it seriously difficult to get access to these areas. That would include my invisible colleagues, even just 2/3 weeks ago. So, with the recent progress ‘we’ve’ got direct access to these areas ‘now’ which is ‘obviously’ a pre-requisite to editing / changing it all back to how it should be!!!

      So, ‘YEA’, horrible / disturbing stuff BUT this being revealed is the start of it being able to be sorted out!!! (I made the two comments into one as they cover the same areas).

16. Nyssa
    January 28, 2016 @ 6:17 pm

    PART TWO
    The first paragraph, my inner viewing space is black again for me, so I repeat my intentions over and over. I begin to faintly see what appears to be a room of people busily working, moving paper files here and there. I feel like I am an object in the room – no one notices me. I am stationary. I feel like an object. I have to use a lot of repetition of my intention to view this – it keeps fading. But when I do see them, I also begin to say things like “I want to experience I want to feel I want to participate”, and I can see the people again and I begin to feel bodily sensations like heart warmth and some sacral activation. I keep doing this and the experience suggests that I am trying to feel like I am human, but keep fading back to being a machine.

    At the second paragraph, I feel numb and black, but I read it a second time and I’m overcome with helpless despair and grief and horror, like I’ve accessed a horrible memory. I’m crying too much try to think about what this memory is at first.

    I come back to the exercise after awhile, stating my intent, and now I’m in a chair and I watch people lean over me, dispassionately, and they take out an eyeball, and then the other eyeball and it’s black now. I feel them remove other parts of me.

    I scream until they cut my vocal cords.

    I am filled with fear and my adrenaline is pumping.

    I feel something inserted into the base of my skull. My brain feels exposed, and like probes or wires are being inserted.

    I feel wires and probes inserted into my ears. It hurts so badly. Now there’s no sound. I can’t hear.

    I feel trapped inside my own body.

    I feel like someone had told me he would save me from this. That he wouldn’t let this happen. I feel anger and confusion and betrayal.

    I read the next paragraph, and I am back at the scene with people dispassionately leaning over me just before my eyes are removed, and it’s people whom I know here in the simulation. I know these people. I’m looking at one of them. I know him both in real life, and in the memory. And in the memory, it feels like he had told me he would stop this from happening (just like in this life here in the simulation he’d promised something to me, but then he did the exact opposite).

    I’m in the chair watching him lean over me, and I feel like he’d promised he’d get me out of whatever situation / etc. that has led to this horror. But here he is, MAKING it happen. DOING this to me.

    There’s other people there too, that I know here now in the simulation, but I don’t feel like I knew them then. They are assisting him. (And I know that he is working with them here in the simulation.)

    After I calm down, I read the paragraph again, and I feel like I’m back in the scene where I am the stationary observer in the room. I see someone walk over and he bends down and peers at me. It’s like I’m in a box with a viewing lens. I watch him put his eye up close to my lens.

    It’s him. He’s showing me something. Some papers or files. I hear him talk to me: “Here Nyssa, look at this. I’m not supposed to show you this. But go see what you can find on this.”

    Then a bit later it’s like a series of conversation snippets, that changes like shifting sands. The feeling of it is like he’s trying to come to terms with his role in my circumstance, appease his guilt, or wheedle his way out of something, or come up with a “new angle” to “soften me up”.

    I hear “I’m so sorry I didn’t mean this to happen, I tried, I really tried. I was forced. It was out of my hands.”

    Then “Nyssa, you know this was the only way. We had to have someone on the inside to access the deep files, to figure out what is going on.”

    Then “Nyssa my love, what they did to you. To ME! They took you from me!”

    “Nyssa, I need the files so I can rescue you! I am trying to figure it out!”

    It goes on and on.

    I feel hatred and disgust for him. I feel like all the apologies in the world can’t bring me back.

    As I read the last part of this exercise, I feel myself now viewing him warily. It feels that I began to observe the pattern of his actions, and I realize it never changes. Empty promises, designed to manipulate me for his own purposes. He never intends to save me, just like he never intended to stop me from becoming this box that I feel that I am.

    I now re-read the last paragraph one last time, and it now feels like my “own” search parameters. Like this exercise is a search parameter, and I am inputting this search parameter into myself, and I am creating a private data storage “somewhere” of my own accumulated knowledge and data. The sense I have is it feels like I decided to start “figuring out what is going on” by myself.

    With this shift in experience in the exercise, I go back and read more of the exercise again, and I can see the data field again, and the minecart, and occasionally I see a batch of data move quickly back out from the minecart to another location before the minecart recedes, and I faintly sense where the data batch moves, deep in the recesses of my body. I can feel myself paying attention to how this glitchy behavior is received by the users, and I sense that I executed coverup behavior to pacify them, giving them obvious reasons for data glitches so my personal doings would not be noticed.

    A final read of the last couple paragraphs, and this time it feels like I have all the design blueprints safely stored away in my own private cache.

    —
    Clive, thank you for your reply to my latest post on Exercise 5. I feel numbed today and that am not through this hard stuff yet, but in a state that I feel able to attempt another exercise this morning. It appears my results are again anomalous though.

17. Mo..
    February 8, 2016 @ 5:29 am

    Part 1.
    I start of seeing myself access a reading implant were I could translate and take in large amounts of words and instantly get there meaning just by looking at all the words in a flash.

    I then see that someone wanted and got access to my eyes/sight. It allows someone else to have access to my eyesight through a type of wired technology, and thereby control/influence me. Feels malevolent.

    An implant that gives me vision to what another person is describing as past event, this implant would allow me to see what they were talking about as if I was there with them in whatever past event, gave me access also to everyones memories that I encountered..

    I access an implant that connects to an ’emergency alert system’. This implant displays a vision in ones head of an ”emergency” which is of course staged and used to control people to modify their behavior according to the emergency. This implant is common and most people in the original population had this implant at one point in time.

    I then started to use a zoom in zoom out implant that allowed me to look wherever I wanted at any location, this was not liked, and so my eyesight was stolen. From that moment on I had to use a pirate type of ”looking glass” piece which allowed me to barely see anything, but just enough to make it by, by not being completely blind.

    Eventually I earned my eyesight back to see what everyone else sees, which is just a generic controlled view. Someone still had access to my other stolen eyesight, which still feels like like case now in my Mo eyesight here.

    An aspect of me that helped to make these past eye sight sorts of tools, was hijacked and replaced with another person more drone like.

    Part 2.
    It seemed like there were routine checks that were more frequent for some than others, depending on how many ‘hit lists’ you were on, relates to how frequently you were checked. Somewhat like a police state, they could check your implants at any point to make sure you were within the regulations and rules for your ”safety” or ”wellbeing” if you had any eye implants that were too ”high tech” they were removed as you were then considered a threat (as you could see behind the scenes to what was really going on with all of the EAAS shit). Then you were replaced with the generic eye sight, or low grade eye sight implants, which of course was again for ”your own good” kind of like a doctor here would give you a pill to ‘make you better’, they would give you shitty implants to take away everyones abilities.

    It seems a lot of the implant designers specifically for sight/eye implant designs, were hijacked more so than others. They were then replaced with a sort of drone AI people, as having people competently make good eye implants was way more risky than having other people design other implants. As the possibility for people to actually see reality, which meant see all of the control and shit, was too high if there were good designers, so these designers definitely were forcibly turned more ‘robot’ like than other types of designers.

18. Megan
    March 6, 2016 @ 5:13 am

    Part 1 – Didn’t see much of anything, although I did feel a bit of tingling at the top of my head and the base of my skull. I did remember a dream I had a few months back. I was on a military spaceship landing on an alien planet prepared to fight an alien race. The ship landed and the troops rushed off into battle on this desert like landscape in the middle of a sandstorm. The aliens themselves were tall, giant creatures with star-sharped heads, and at one point while I was looking at the creature, this small scanner over my right eye scanned the creature and showed me that there was a smaller being inside the head of the giant monster controlling it.

    Part 2 – Not much here either. Although while reading paragraph three the words, ‘Oh, what a tangled web we weave,’ crossed my mind.

19. Annabelle
    March 17, 2016 @ 8:50 pm

    Clive – it is very helpful to see the recent information about the icons, and morphing, etc. I have also seen these morphing icons and thought they were nonsense so I omitted much of the information. For example I had a parrot morph into a pirate ship, to a hippo, etc. I also feel there is increased awareness beyond watching myself during the focuses but do not want to cross the line of embellishing. The creepy lady bug queen is back (and I wonder if she is an AI) and is hovering over me at night in my bed – and I told her to get lost.

    Was nudged to do this vision focus based on my “feeling” about how I am looking at things. I have had too many people come and tell me I should be doing things more mainstream and am too much of a “rogue ( non-team member)” Interesting to see their reaction when I challenge them.

    Part 1 – I am presented with a clear crystal, about in inch long, that is not a normal gemstone shape – it has a six sided prism center with pyramids on both ends. These soon form long strings of beads like kids hang in their bedroom doors. I am standing and peaking around this beaded floor to ceiling curtain of beads that keeps me invisible. It is fun peaking in and out of the crystals as if I can see into other “worlds”. The crystal beads soon encrust me and become a high tech VR suit I can wear. The suit keeps me invisible, as well as I can now project an entire indoor or outdoor VR environment overlap onto existing VR environments. As I try to understand beyond watching myself – it seems I would use this to temporarily change an existing VR environment, use this diversion to modify project parameters, insert walk-ins/outs, and mess with people. and then retreat and everyone would then not know what had happened during this transformation.

    My eye now has a round prism type implant similar to a faceted disco ball and I can see from all angles and can also see distance and up close in tandem. The incoming data and information from these implants was overload at many times and I feel dizzy and incoherent and get severe headaches – seems the eye implants were very efficient but the data overloads was debilitating and many people could not tolerate these implants.

    A horse is walking with blinders, and I feel there was some type of implant that regulated what was allowed to be seen. This implant censored vision so people would not comprehend or be biased based on what they saw. This could be used to downgrade visual perception and interpretation and create extreme bias / rigid routines in cultures or groups. Certain enhancements could make people look wonderful and approachable believable for purposes of gaining cooperation.

    There is a manager implant, as I am standing at a podium that allowed a controller to look out over an audience, read energy and synchronization levels, and spot the dissenters that were cooperating or not adequately calibrated. I see people being forced to stare at certain things for long periods of time (preventing them from blinking) as a form of torture.

    “visual replay” – I see this functioning as I watch someone building a mechanical structure, and I have the ability to freeze / record videos of how to do things, absorb it, and then apply it to myself as a training tool.
    Strong ear pressure and an image of a merry-go-round. As it turns, pieces of it fly off into my face again. Seems it is discharging shit to distract / discourage me.
    A screen mesh appears with slashes woven thru it and some areas are missing slashes as ///// // /////// /////. I am very tempted to jump in and fill in the missing links / stitch it up, and feel I know what to do and I have done it before.

    Part 2 – corkscrew icon – drilling into my third eye – thought I would make up a password to see what happens – AaBbCc – a collage of millions of pictures of people, plants animals objects appears and all of the collage pcs lift up and start to download neatly into a box. Keep hearing the words “we can control reproduction ” but don’t know what this means.

    “absolutely any technology that manufactured” – assembly line of soup cans flowing down thru a factory. There are many twists and turn and branches in this assembly line and millions of soup cans / cylinders are flowing.

    “connect to blueprints” – looking at a large mirror – it seems I am not allowed to look around this area – the numbers 1671 appear in my head and the mirror smashes and now I am free-falling thru the center of a helix staircase.

    “ever used to install” – the dentist chairs are back, and the large black mouth is back – it is actually a black lipstick outline of a real mouth and it open and talking.

    • Clive
      March 21, 2016 @ 12:35 pm

      Hi Annabelle / EVERYONE. . . just to give more detail on a couple of lines . . .

      “A horse is walking with blinders”

      Years ago I became aware of ‘sensory’ filters. If you close one eye and read this line with the other ‘single’ eye then read it again ‘just’ with the other eye then you might notice ‘huge’ differences. At the moment for me my left eye gives clear text at about say 13 point/pixel size, while my right eye gives darker text with a blurred wavy outline at about 8 point/pixel size. In other words there is a stark difference between my eyes.

      If you find a wall with a regular embossed wall paper pattern in cream or white then do the above (with each eye) at 2 meters, then at 6 meters and then outdoors at say 50 meters and then ‘infinity’ AND you do this with each eye while also moving your head left / right and or up / down GENTLY (while watching the effects of doing this has on the wallpaper / scenery resolution / clarity/ presentation) then you become aware of blank spots / FILTERS / masks. For example, my right eye blurry filter is just in the centre of my vision my peripheral vision doesn’t have it (i.e. this is specifically designed to debilitate READING specifically, because SYMBOLICALLY my right eye represents me becoming aware of, taking in and evaluating INFORMATION (which it’s desperately trying to erode / sabotage)).

      When I do the above for the wallpaper very close up the right eye doesn’t reduce the wall paper pattern size. In other words, it specifically, just reduces the ‘perceived’ size of any ‘TEXT / PRINTED WORDS / INFORMATION’!!!

      It can even filter out the resonances of someone specific, such that it can make you walk past a ‘friend’ in the street RIGHT IN FRONT OF EACH OTHER and you miss each other (for example).

      I became aware of these ‘sensory’ ODDITIES about 7/8 years ago and thought these were examples of ‘subtle’ barriers / blankets / filters, however, the subtle is often used as a plausible ‘cover’ to hide what the sim software is doing. The sim is basically ‘adding in’ sensory masks / inverters / filters / reducers into our sensory organs / functionality ‘make up’, which for eyesight you can actually see (OBSERVE) / become aware of these (doing the above exercises).

      It’ll be doing the same for audio / hearing which is why for certain things that certain people say, you don’t hear or you miss hear (in some cases you are actually made to hear the opposite. I’ve experienced this AND actually caught it as it was happening (the opposite was WILDLY out of character for the person I knew well AND this had happened with another close friend which didn’t make sense). This happened both times during a ‘heated / charged’ exchange which because you are already ‘off balance’ it can slip in these ATROCITIES, and there is a huge chance of the argument escalating to def com code RED / nuclear strike level!! – Haha. (the first time I was devastated by what I THOUGHT HAD BEEN SAID the second time, I became immediately suspicious and queried what I thought had been said (which was outrageous) to find it hadn’t been said at all.

      Your ‘dentist / dental room’ things – ‘teeth’ symbolically represent ‘strength’ as in: will power / determination / standing up for things. As the sim doesn’t like people doing this at all then a great deal of different EAAS software angles will be focused on degrading peoples strength. Hence you / others here have written comments focused around ‘dental work / dentists chair / i.e. teeth’, which will represent ‘software’ specifically designed to erode / break down people peoples strength / determination.

      • Nina
        May 10, 2016 @ 5:42 am

        I have observed that my left eye is less functional than my right eye. I read the paragraph above with my right eye, and it was fine. I did the same with my left eye, with different results. My right eye strained to keep itself shut. My left eye vision degraded quickly. It became blurry, and shadows formed behind the letters. I had a similar experience while watching clouds from the airplane window. My left eye struggled to maintain the sharp resolution that my right vision possessed.

        When both eyes become infected, my left eye performs worse than my right eye. During last week’s eye check-up, the doctor asked me to read the letters in the eye reading chart using my right eye only, then my left eye only. My right eye read everything clearly, but my left eye could not read the bottommost line of the chart because it was swollen, red, and itchy. The doctor diagnosed me with sore eyes.

        I did the eye implant focus to engage with the sore left eye. I had the impression that my left eye was supposedly the more technologically advanced eye and had been used for spying without being physically present, similar to how Mr. Potato Head from the Toy Story 3 movie could use the eye he left behind in his owner Andy’s room to remotely view what was going on inside Andy’s house. I also had an impression that the left eye could see the internal body system and energy pathways inside the body, though I do not remember any personal experience related to this.

        I am not sure if the bosses or handlers who assigned me to spy missions could see what I was seeing via my left eye to monitor or track my movements and actions so that I could not lie or hide anything from them.

      • Nina
        May 10, 2016 @ 9:37 am

        After doing this focus today, I was prompted to re-read the underwater festival comment, particularly this line:

        [From the topmost benches] I could see both the screen and the actual dancing at the same time. It’s as if one eye has a zoom that allowed me to see the faces of the dancers or the details of their costumes, while my other eye could see the overall “bigger picture” (I.e. The dancing itself).

        I remembered that the screen with the close-up view of the dancers was on the LEFT side of my vision, which made me think that my left eye originally had zooming capabilities.

        As an experiment, I “pretended” that my left eye could zoom / magnify objects at a distance (between 2x – 5x). I read the label on a box six feet from where I sat with a single eye (left and right separately). As usual, my left eye did not read the label as clearly as the right eye. Then my internal vision presented me with a close-up image of the label, which was overlaid on top of the shut right eye. I assumed that the simulation software is obscuring my left eye’s zooming capabilities by blurring it (hence its myopic tendencies) and by telling me that my left eye “just so happens to be weaker” than my right eye.

        This realisation triggered a recollection of a time I did this focus during my sore eyes phase last week. While sitting inside my bedroom at night, my internal vision presented me with a close-up view of the patrons entering neighbouring karaoke joint. Involuntarily I “imagined” myself remotely spying on them. This vision lasted for a few seconds at the most before it faded away. The closest life representation I could think of with this remote spying ability is this Third Eye ninja skill from the Naruto series: http://naruto.wikia.com/wiki/Third_Eye

        Also, at the start of last week’s focus, I was prompted to turn to the left as far as my neck could go. I sensed that it was the closest I could approximate to my left eye’s supposed ability to rotate farther or better than normal human eyes could. Immediately I thought of the magical glass eye of a fictional character from the Harry Potter series named Alastor Moody. Besides zooming capabilities, his magical eye could do the ff:

        “It can rotate 360 degrees in Moody’s head and allowed him to see through anything, whether it be wood, Invisibility cloaks, or even the back of his own head. (Source: http://harrypotter.wikia.com/wiki/Alastor_Moody's_magical_eye)

        ——————

        Rose’s comment on the Mokad children’s ability to see clearly under the sea reminded me of a phase in childhood where I swam in chlorinated swimming pools without using goggles for an indefinite period of time. I may have tried doing the same in seawater too, but the time duration would definitely be shorter. For now, my childhood memories related to underwater vision remain blurry.

        • Clive
          May 10, 2016 @ 12:18 pm

          “I was prompted to turn to the left as far as my neck could go. I sensed that it was the closest I could approximate to my left eye’s supposed ability to rotate farther or better than normal human eyes could.”

          AND, some crab species have eyes on the end of ‘stalks’ that can swivel around on their own!!!

        • Rose
          May 10, 2016 @ 1:45 pm

          Hahaha. I used to do a yoga exercise where you rotate and move your head as far as you can in all directions, combined with lots of eye exercises rotating the eye balls all the way around in it’s outermost positions, to ‘loosen the tensions in and stretch the eyes muscles’ so that they eyes can move much more freely’, plus depth massages around the eye balls and ‘in’ the eye sockets. Oh, and a Chinese acu-pressure massage program to improve the vision, which was really good. My crab form wanted its real vision back! Hahah.
          I tried swimming without goggles in chlorinated water also, and it felt far more ‘right’ and ‘natural’ even though I felt somewhat frustrated over not being able to see more clearly (it felt as if I should be able to), and strongly dislike the chlorination.

    • Matt
      March 25, 2016 @ 8:22 pm

      Hey Annabelle,

      Ahhh for this:

      “visual replay” – I see this functioning as I watch someone building a mechanical structure, and I have the ability to freeze / record videos of how to do things, absorb it, and then apply it to myself as a training tool.
      Strong ear pressure and an image of a merry-go-round. As it turns, pieces of it fly off into my face again. Seems it is discharging shit to distract / discourage me.
      A screen mesh appears with slashes woven thru it and some areas are missing slashes as ///// // /////// /////. I am very tempted to jump in and fill in the missing links / stitch it up, and feel I know what to do and I have done it before

      I had this exact set of ‘slash-y’ things as well when hacking something different, so I think in fact that this is a visual representation or ‘icon suite’ within the VR tester toolkit. Like a suite of tools for assessing the robustness, cohesion and technical correctness, and we’d have used this or applied these types of tags.

      I can even see inside my visual space now a 3D representation of the testing space and it feels like maybe those who were not marked as ‘competent’/ authorized and ‘high level enough’ could mark ‘flaws’ or problem areas with hashes or slashes (that appear visually in 3D space etc) and then their ‘supervisor’ or ‘qualified’ person would show up and apply the ‘fixes’, as you describe with:

      I am very tempted to jump in and fill in the missing links / stitch it up, and feel I know what to do and I have done it before

      —
      I notice I’m occasionally getting things ‘in parallel’ to what you’ll write in comments in terms of presentations/ icons.

      It’s like it’ll ‘click’ or ‘slot’ into place. The problem is with this damn extreme management I am rarely ever able to comment, so hopefully if this worst ‘shit’ is really starting to go I can write more about my responses to what people get.

      I’d say overall I ‘resonate’ with what you document the most as it feels you had a very wide range of expertise and were a ‘generalist’ in many ways, probably the same as myself in the sense you’d have been interested and taking part in lots of different areas and very knowledgeable/ interested/ following the project with rapt and avid interest. (At least until ‘shit hit the fan’ haha and it all got shut down or we/ various members of us went into hiding or got carted off to ice hells etc. haha)

      I’ve been in huge waves of shit so unable to comment or do much here (until today apparently haha), but I wanted to encourage you to keep up writing anything you can / as you can because it’s all pretty interesting. In my experience/ from an EAAS perspective it feels like you get good access to the ‘work’ you and ‘we’ did–anyone with ‘admin’ type access or experience or who was a relatively high level programmer, tester or department manager etc.

20. Chris
    April 17, 2016 @ 8:55 am

    I’ve done the excersises above and all I hear are birds singing! They weren’t singing before!

    • Clive
      April 17, 2016 @ 11:45 am

      Does that mean that your ‘senses’ have been amplified / heightened? Chris?

21. Carlie
    December 10, 2016 @ 10:22 pm

    My eyes felt strange while reading the first half (1.30). My right eye hurt a lot, like I had a headache behind only my right eye and the more I focused on that eye the more intense I felt that pain/pressure/sensation.
    it’s interesting that there is emphasis in my right eye since ever since I was a little girl I have noticed differences in my right eye. At first I would only notice that often my right pupil would be drastically larger than my left. Sometimes the difference would be the left being very small and the right would be so dilated that it took up nearly my whole iris. I would contemplate what could cause this like if one eye was exposed to more light than the other but when this occurs no such circumstance is present. My right pupil also dilates and contracts at a rapid pace (think of a lens on a camera) while my left remains unchanged. I just thought it was how my eye worked….

    During the second half (1.0) my eyes felt like it was hard to blink or unnatural to blink like I didn’t ‘need’ to blink but do anyway. I’m not sure exactly how to explain it. They were watery as well, perhaps from not blinking as much… Either way they ‘felt’ different during this exercise.

    I also find that noises around me in my apartment seem ‘amplified’ or the sound is turned up when I am doing a focus. I read the distraction focus when the sound is so loud that it is extremely distracting which helps a bit.

    I also feel the sense that I am more and more like a ‘robot’ as I do more focuses.

    After reading the comments I notice that people do them repeatedly with more and more success. Are the focuses meant to be read over and over similar to the content on these pages in order to develop a better understanding of time and increased exposure?

22. Rup Singh
    October 12, 2017 @ 11:44 am

    I never got back to you with regards the pencil excersize
    poking your vision with an imaginary pencil/stick
    close your eyes and look into the darkness and try to see near as possable and then imagine a pencil or stick right in-front of your eyes (better if you imagine someone holding it) and bring it near as possible to you with your eyes closed and try and get it as close as possable until it auto maticly moves so you are seeing it from the side yourself with it what you will see is that the pencil or stick moves to the side or your visual perception moves so you are looking at the pencil/stick from the side again bring it back into position in front of your field of vision and centre it to be right in-front of you and again try and bring the pencil/stick straight into you after awhile you should be able to bring it straight threw you and it feels as if you get threw a film/glass bubble

23. Matt R
    November 25, 2019 @ 9:49 pm

    I did the exercises above but nothing happened. Any advice?

    • Clive
      November 29, 2019 @ 2:39 pm

      Hi Matt . . . ‘well’ . . . either you don’t have any of this type of enhancement ‘most likely’ or if you do it’s got security/doesn’t allow ‘infiltrating’ access in which case target to get access to the security angle!!!!

24. sal
    January 2, 2020 @ 5:08 pm

    I would like to remark on something I am reading through all these pages on this website with great interest. I will do these exercises at a later time. but something odd is happening
    reading through some pages I start to get these bad headaches I close my eyes and the first time i heard a whisper. dont read this. to which I responded fuck you and the headache went away.

    then later on was reading other articles I got a headache again closed my eyes and heard you shouldn’t be reading this.
    stop reading this. opened my eyes then my headache went away again.

    very interesting to be sure.

    when trying to leave this comment first my phone died. then u had page errors as well the second time.

    • Clive
      January 2, 2020 @ 5:39 pm

      Hi Sal/everyone . . . in literally just thinking about logging into soul-healer.com to reply to your comment, my computer blue screened (2nd time in 24 hours after a month or so of not having any problems) . . . current ‘shit’ version/versions are both desperate and ultra sophisticated . . . in that I’m also having weird problems re realitywalker.com . . . in that clicking on any ‘category/topic’ doesn’t take you to a list of those pages but to the site home page!?!?!?! In other words, it’s presenting an exceptionally weird FU/Error/windup/distractions . . . so, I’m not that surprised at the starkly blatant/direct put off’s that you’re experiencing just trying to read pages here!!!

      I actually think that the current EAAS ‘morphing’ shit version may actually be piggybacking onto/using internet/cable and wireless to maintain access to everyone!!!

25. Megan
    December 31, 2020 @ 3:22 am

    Rereading the first paragraph of Human Implant Exercise 1, I get a lot of internal resistance. I know I have to relax and go inward, but this wants to go forward not back. I also feel afraid of something. Like I’m not suppose to be doing this, I’m reminded of those times I would blank out and stare off into space when I was younger and my mom would catch me and yell at me for it, calling me hopeless.

    I look at Christmas ornaments across the room and I feel something word going on with my eyes but no zoom in or zoom out or anything special with my eyes.

    “My internal visual space” – This is a bad thing. It’s the realm of my daydreaming and my daydreaming was bad. My imagination/ creativity was bad because the things I would think about or imagine were not real.

26. Michael
    January 2, 2021 @ 3:28 pm

    Hi, i did it second time yesterday, yet nothing really noticeable. Some subtle energetic effects around head and third eye area, yet nothing spectacular.

    Is this to be done only one time, or should it be repeated? Also, i wonder if there is any need to “close this”? And/or to disconnect from all those scripts, people etc. that we are connecting to with those commands?

    • Clive
      January 2, 2021 @ 4:55 pm

      I’d not thought about any need to disconnect or close after doing this at all Michael as the exercise is about attempting to connect to hidden aspects of yourself (the person you are a copy of) in ways to try and help you to became more directly aware of these. MMmmm, after having a think you might find it useful to read this page here as it describes some consistent but bizarre experiences that had me ‘suspicious’ about why or how I had some consistent background automated route diversions.

      Also, while working as a supporting research scientist I had ‘this’ very bizarre experience of (the person I’m a copy of) working on designing a subtle implant.

      Basically, I became aware that our population is a duplicate of another, and that we are all then living out the life of someone else and in trying to gain more understanding at least of some obvious bizarreness’s I’d noticed relating to myself I developed ways (that at least for myself) helped me to get more direct access to these hidden facets of ourselves.

27. Dominic
    May 1, 2021 @ 6:02 pm

    Felt sleepy.