Advice on How to Improve Self Awareness & Memory Recall of Past Anomalous Experiences

"Mandela Effect Anomalous Memories Investigation: This 18 page series (full list here) uses my own Walkers Crisps Mandela Effect experience to demonstrate how discussions of ANY/ALL Mandela Effect Experiences are all themselves consistently anomalous, specifically because essential/basic/important information relevant/central/critical to the 'ANOMALIES/EXPERIENCES' being discussed aren't even mentioned. In contrast, this series examines/evaluates memory 'composition' as well as important memory recall factors (feelings, emotions, internal states, inner sensations & awareness's (plus senses)) in attempts to not only 'highlight' these discussion anomalies while simultaneously providing comprehensive evaluation and analysis of the Mandela Effect memory anomalies, while even mentioning other apparently 'invisible/impossible to become aware of' memory anomalies too!!!"

On the previous page I wrote:

“Where might spending consistent/dedicated time lead you to with respect to gaining deeper understandings of ‘yourself’?”

Let me give you some background with respect to myself as well as my ‘lifestyle’ inclusive of my own dedicated program of self investigation/self understanding!!!

I currently don’t have or watch TV and I’ve only had access to a TV/watched TV occasionally over a period of 5/6 years out of the last 30 years. I’ve not signed up for twitsters, farcebook or anything equivalent that could contribute to myself being subjected to super DISTRACTIONS while possibly being liked or disliked (as opposed to ‘interesting/intelligent/thought provoking/comprehensive/poor’ etc etc) by ‘opinionated’ people whom often have a very poor ‘life scale’ education never mind an attention span that’s on par with that of a mayfly i.e. it’s been reduced down to pretty much nothing!!!

In contrast to the above, over the last 40 years I’ve developed and stuck to a personally initiated self awareness program which has on average had me spending about 2 hours a day EVERY DAY spending consistent quiet time directly orientating myself/my awareness/consciousness to my internal states/feelings/inner landscape/sensations as part of an ongoing effort to understand myself and particularly to understand/attempt to identify the origins/past origins of ‘anything’ I wasn’t happy about with respect to myself and or which didn’t make sense.

Initially this was to help me with respect to the piss taking stammer and speech block which kept me withdrawn and unsociable/isolated from people while stressing the living daylights out of myself. However having success in completely turning the stammer around while simultaneously becoming more and more sensitive to my own internal states/landscape then I just kept pushing these lines and becoming more and more sensitive to ‘myself’ with respect to trying to find/identify the past origins of ‘whatever’ was contributing to ‘originate’ something/anything impacting ‘anything’ of myself. In many cases I only became aware of ‘whatever’ because I deliberately spent time orientating to and holding my attention on my internal self/landscape as part of trying to understand what contributed to ‘originate’ something/anything impacting myself.

Just to make this clear (in case anyone wants to repeat this ‘experiment’ and or gain an equivalent level of experience OF THEMSELVES for themselves) I’ve spent on average 2 hours a day for the last 40 years becoming more and more sensitive/aware of my internal states (which is 2x365x40 which equates to approximately 30,000 hours although during one ‘intense’ phase lasting 6 months I spent on average 6 hours a day doing this).

So, if I were to classify myself as a world expert in DIRECT EXPERIENTIAL TERMS on internal states/inner landscape, inclusive of very subtle/background feelings and awareness’s this would likely be a ‘GROSS’ understatement!!!!

Now, I’ve a few web sites where I specifically write about many different ‘anomalous’ experiences many of which I myself have personally experienced at different times during my life!!!

In some instances because these happened in my ‘distant’ past (a few happened 30+ years ago), then I have actually spent a SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF TIME attempting to recall all of the details of some of these because I was writing about these as ‘ANOMALOUS/WEIRD’ experiences.

While attempting to recall certain of these experiences I became aware that doing this on my own in a quiet room while also specifically minimising sensory as well as external chatter/sensory ‘clutter’ (no radio or music, phone off the hook) helped maximise/speed up the recall of the experiences I was trying to remember more details of.

This article: Lake Distract, Windermere, Stationary Silver Grey UFO Disc Sighting Described for example, was written/edited/re-written over a period of 2 to 3 weeks during which, every so often I spent a decent amount of time with my ‘whole attention/senses’ orientated to/focused on re-familiarising myself with that entire days past experiences as part of recalling as much as possible of the UFO sighting itself (this specific event happened about 40 years ago).

Doing this not only made me aware of ‘all sorts of things’ that I’d previously not recalled/remembered when I wrote previous versions of that article BUT doing this also had me becoming aware of the following:

The more time you spend ‘gently/without force or effort’ and perhaps without an agenda to ‘PROVE’ anything but very much specifically to help yourself recall more and more details of a specific day/experience irrespective of what ’emerges/you became aware of’ then I gradually became aware of a lot of things with respect to what contributes to the full ‘composition/make up’ of my/our ‘memories’ and their interconnected/inter relatedness.

Basically your 5 senses/your feelings and emotions as well as various internal states/inner awareness’s are not in the slightest ‘independent/discrete/isolated’ from each other in ‘memory storage/recall’ terms.

Your memories are in fact composed of a very rich integrated/multidimensional tapestry/composite representing the dynamic interactions/interconnections and in some cases ‘cascades of these’ between many and maybe all of the different senses/feelings/emotional/internal states/inner awareness’s.

“No Discussion of EXPERIENCES OF OR FACTORS RELATING TO OR IMPACTING ‘MEMORY RECALL/REMEMBERING’ ABILITIES”

In that they are all ‘INTERCONNECTED’ with respect to EVERYTHING WE EXPERIENCE and more so for EACH/ANY SIGNIFICANT EXPERIENCE/EVENT then when you spend ‘quiet/sensory reduced’ time returning your attention to a specific past event/circumstance/experience while also occasionally reminding yourself (in FULL SENSORY/FEELING/INTERNAL STATE TERMS) OF WHAT YOU ALREADY REMEMBER then more and more of the interconnected ‘composite’ memory detail ‘naturally’ emerges . . . AND OFTEN KEEPS EMERGING as the interconnected composite ‘memories’ of that past event are ‘gently’ reconnected/recalled.

As this page/series ‘IS’ about ‘ANOMALOUS MEMORIES, then let me make it very clear how ‘familiar’ I am with my own memory ‘make up’ and particularly in terms of my own practical/experiences of ACTIVELY SPENDING TIME investigating/recalling my own memories and particularly of ones that relate to ‘anomalous’ experiences then I’m going to give some more details of my other UFO sightings ‘memory exploration/recall of these experiences’ efforts!!!

The link to the UFO article above is part of a series that included another article on another ‘UFO’ sighting experience that I also had (which is here). Both of these sightings happened over a time span of at least 20 minutes (more likely 30, although possibly even longer for the second ‘UFO article) while under casual somewhat relaxing circumstances were my ‘focus of attention’ wasn’t otherwise occupied/pre-occupied such that each ‘UFO’ was the ‘central/pre-occupying component of my awareness/attention’ during the time they were both around.

I do however have very vague memories of a third UFO sighting (that feels more ‘spooky/scary’) that I simply cannot recall good or distinct details of at all, and which to be honest is quite annoying.

However, in writing this page and then thinking about and remembering the details of this specific sighting ‘again’ then I now understand why it is:

1. ‘Vague in ‘details” while . . .
2. Having more of an emotional ‘impact’ on myself compared to the others . . .

Basically, the details that I can recall of this sighting makes me aware that this sighting happened while I was driving my car, specifically somewhere/remote ‘hilly’ (likely somewhere on the way to or within Weardale/Allendale or in the foothills of the Pennines) on a winding/twisty road with the sky/weather being ‘moody/blustery/overcast’.

In other words I seem to have caught sight of a ‘disc’ type UFO a few times maybe over 5 to 10 minutes in total, such that I can remember having the distinct impression/feeling (likely due to it’s angle of orientation) that is was maybe tracking me/myself ‘specifically’ while I was driving on a remote, twisty road over rolling hills in moderately overcast/spitting/moody weather conditions inclusive of a slightly spooky atmosphere during which time no ‘lay-by’ appeared and I’m pretty sure I saw no other cars either, however it was a ‘very’ remote area such that on average none ‘holiday’ days you might see two, one or even no cars on that road over that length of time.

So, as I likely visually ‘saw’ this UFO for between 3 and 5 seconds a total maybe 3/4 times over a 5 to 10 minute period under conditions that were massively distracting ‘attention wise’ then it’s not a surprise that I cannot recall much ‘detail’ (because the circumstances themselves are actually ‘VAGUE’ in detail terms) while in that this UFO seemed to be tracking myself and I’d have ‘spooky/spooked’ feelings relating to this then in FEELING terms there is ‘something’ about this ‘sighting’ that is personally scary/impacting!!!

Basically, it was the (in my full ‘body’) sensed/impacted memories/feeling sensations of the scary/unsettling ‘mood/atmosphere’ of this specific ‘encounter’ and how this impacted me that was drawing my attention back to this particular UFO encounter/experience.

So, I’m going to mention ‘again’ the paucity of information/discussions relating to the internal location within the human body that stores these types of ‘background’ feelings/sensations as well as moods/atmospheres as well as of how these positively or negatively impact the recall of particular memories and particularly of very specific experiences and PARTICULARLY with respect to circumstances/experiences that our academics and scientists would class as anomalous/impossible.

For example, it is possible that there are consistent correlations between people experiencing specific types of background feelings/sensation as well as moods/atmospheres because they are consistently linked/associated with particular locations/places as well as of when people have specific experiences that are recognized/classified as anomalous/impossible?

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