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What Anomalies Would Suggest That We Are A Very, Very Much Smaller, Sub Population Compared to the Original?
‘IF’ we are a duplicated population, AND rather than having a very, very large population spread out and living within an entire galaxy or 2 or 3 then what ‘anomalies’ would be presented here ‘IF’ we are just a very, very small sub set of a larger population all now living in circumstances where a lot of people that the person we are a copy of met and interacted with ‘original’ circumstances are now missing/NOT PRESENT HERE?!?!?!
As, I’ve mentioned elsewhere here, pretty much everyone on Earth here/within the EAAS/our fake software defined reality is a ‘key’ person i.e. pretty much everyone here was important in some way within the original Multiverse, either as a leader and or diplomat and or as an expert/advisor/key bureaucrat and local community leader and or someone very competent and or otherwise associated with these people . . .
So, quite a while ago (many, many years ago now) I realised that because we are copied/duplicated people supposedly living out a pre-defined i.e. duplicated life/timeline then many of our predefined interactions (i.e. people our original forms within the original MV interacted with) are actually NOT HERE, i.e. they are missing in our single earth world planet version . . . hence then, during specific interactions here that represent a larger function/greater variety of people that we have here . . . such that during these specific ‘functions’ it is very likely that people that our original forms interacted with are NOT ACTUALLY HERE, i.e. they are absent/missing . . .
When I first became aware of the ‘missing people’ manipulations possibility (many, many years ago now) this actually made sense to me because during some very interactions with some specific people at parties (in the very distant past) I ‘noticed’ (and was actually quite shocked at the time) that during some specific interactions with some specific person I actually found myself behaving/being very, VERY different (I’m pretty sure that I even noticed that my body language changed too) . . . the bottom line was that I noticed that I was interacting with some ‘specific’ people in ways that very much had me: NOT ACTUALLY BEING ME/MYSELF!!!
In other words, I seemed to temporarily be being made to be/to appear to be ‘someone else’ . . . at least, when interacting with some very specific people . . . also, it is likely that I only ‘noticed’ these bizarreness’s because before going to these specific parties/events I’d likely spent about decade or more of between 3 to 6 hours a day working on myself specifically to directly access and investigate the origins of any ‘odd’ feelings as well as various internal states/sensations, such that I was exceptionally sensitive to and hence then very, very ‘aware’ of myself my functioning as well as my internal states and hence then very aware of my ‘normal’ functioning/presentation during interactions!!!
However, I ‘now’ think that the ‘missing’ people effort isn’t ‘really’ about ‘missing people’, rather, it’s about having an excuse to define ‘interactions’ software/routines that have access to and manipulate/use a lot of aspects/functions of our software defined physical body form very, VERY COMPREHENSIBLY, including, perhaps even on a hormonal level, as well as via body language/physical body presentation and persona/personality too!!!
After having a think recently, it seems to me that we ‘currently’ have yet another ‘missing people’ network version, which is currently actively working to restore and or then maintain people in their usual shit/effects/debilitations, specifically because this network has to access and manipulate people to such a degree that they can be made to behave as if they are someone else!!!!
In this respect, I’m pretty sure that the current ‘shit’ version we are dealing with is another version of the missing people shit (which used yet another ‘specific’ group of people I call the Nyssa’s to define/test/make work/refine the missing people ‘tech/shit’) with very, very comprehensive as well as ‘base’ access to ourselves!!!!
The Don’t Let Anyone Notice Their Own Odd, Out Of Character, Alternate Personality Presentations/Experiences!!!
It seems to me that because at least some of these alternate/not ourselves presentations while interacting with specific people are actually spectacularly ‘outrageous’ (at least with some very specific people) that an integral part of the base functioning of the ‘missing people/comprehensive human body manipulation software/networks’ are very, very likely to include means to have ourselves NOT TAKE NOTICE OF THESE BIZARRENESS’S TOO!!!
In other words, the missing people shit very likely include direct manipulations/efforts to make people/your reading this as unaware of themselves as possible, so that they don’t then notice that THEY THEMSELVES ARE BEING ‘PUPPETED/MANIPULATED’ TO MAKE THEM INTO ‘SOMEONE ELSE’ DURING INTERACTIONS WITH SPECIFIC PEOPLE/OTHERS!!!
So, overall, I’m pretty sure that it is these missing people networks/shit that are being investigated and dealt with now!!!
SHIT DEGRADING THE PHYSICAL BODY: In chatting with Tom and having some updates from others, it’s very obvious that the human physical body is made to erode and particularly by gradually having people physically moving and or doing things/functioning/performing normal everyday tasks in ways which are more and more ‘incorrect/wrong’ so as to gradually make the physical body more and more decrepit while also making it all more and more difficult to ‘correct’ . . . never mind that no one notices . . .
So, I made up and did the scan below for Nyssa/her family and all AAHS people . . . . and it goes on and on . . . . so, everyone have a play with this and see how this impacts you/others over the next few days!!!!
. . . I connect to myself and all my close family members and or anyone I regularly and or recently interacted with (and or ???/add name in here) and to all ‘shit/systems/networks’ and or combinations of these and or anything else that have been, are now and or would in the future directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to deliberately automatically and or unconscious and or gradually/very gradually adjust how myself/people/anyone move/do things/perform tasks and or do combinations of things/tasks/functions and or how the physical body and or parts of the body and or any combinations of these are coordinated/synchronised and or are timed with respect to how they work/function and or over time (and or are supposed to) and particularly to make any coordinated/synchronised single and or combined movement/movements/action/actions of any combinations of these and or the functioning of limbs/joints/internal structures and or any other body parts/tissues/muscles and or any skeletal parts/structures and or any organs and or the coordinated functioning of these through time less and less normal/optimal and or to deliberately and very gradually make absolutely anything and or any combination of anything of the physical body and or anything of any physiological/neurological functioning less and less optimal/degraded/debilitated and or more and more problematic/dysfunctional and or to also make sure that I/PEOPLE/ANYONE DON’T NOTICE THIS HAPPENING and or if they do notice this, are unable to figure out how to correct these and or to prevent them from actually figuring out and or implementing corrections correctly and or prevent them from having the time/opportunity to actually carry these out . . . and or I connect to absolutely everything/anything that has been, is now and or that would in the future directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to maintain degrading absolutely anything of the physical body and or prevent restoration of normal/optimal physical body functioning of every part and or aspect of the body including muscles/limbs and or any/all internal structures/tissues/organs too and or all correct coordinated/optimal functioning within and between these/all of these . . .
‘NOW’ the above is the ‘base’ targeting focus BUT if below I’ve also written some specific ‘additional’ angles that you can use after doing the above and or after using the line immediately below to reconnect to what you’ve already connected to above . . . . .
I fully reconnect to all my past efforts of doing/using the main focus above . . . I reconnect to absolutely everything/all factors of myself doing the main focus/the focus above . . .
PHYSICAL BODY AILMENTS: . . . and or absolutely anything that has been, is now and or that would in the future directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to re apply and or restore any past physical body health issues and or trauma/traumatic experiences, any past ailment/ailments, any aches, pains and or any ‘replays or partial replays’ of any past experience and or any physical, mental, emotional, physiological, psychological and or any psycho/spiritual issues and or any other undefinable and or difficult to define/target ailment/ailments/traumas/impacts and or any combinations of these including anything being symbolically and or pseudo symbolically converted and or ‘represented/expressed’ as part of any efforts to directly or indirectly impact myself via any aspect or aspects of my physical and or any other ‘body’ . . .
BEFUDDLED HEAD/MENTAL FUNCTIONING SABOTAGES: . . . and or absolutely anything that has been, is now and or that would in the future directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to keep my head befuddled and or prevent me from being able to sustain a consistent mental/thinking/evaluating focus and particularly without being distracted and or prevent me from being able to maintain a sustained attention and or interest and particularly in or for things that I’d normally find interesting as topics and or circumstances . . . and or prevent me from becoming aware of and or thinking about what I need to target and particularly to improve things for myself and or others and particularly with respect to deciding what is important to target and or how to target these things . . .
DEPRESSED/DOWN EVERYTHING SABOTAGED: . . . I connect to absolutely everything everywhere that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute to anything directly or indirectly contributing to me feeling and or being down, despairing, depressed, cannot be bothered and or also causing me to over sleep, sleep too much and or contribute to me having any difficulties getting up ‘AND’ at a decent time and or anything contributing to myself being unable to keep to normal waking/sleeping schedules/times and or any other ‘normal’ body needs/hungers/cycles and or normal schedules and or from doing normal everyday things including having normal/decent/nutritious meals at normal meal times and or having normal, decent family and or friends/work colleagues relationships and or decent/friendly conversations/interactions that don’t trigger flare-ups/trauma and or don’t prompt traumatic memories etc . . .
FOOD CHOICES/PREFERENCES/ALLERGIES: . . . and or anything directly or indirectly contributing to factors influencing and or determining food choices, needs, preferences, likes, dislikes, cravings and or allergies/reactions to any food type . . . and or then contributing to myself eating too much, or not eating enough of anything and or of being made to ‘like/prefer and or crave’ the wrong food and or dislike/hate what would be good for me and or made to eat anything and or any combinations of food and or do this over time that will directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to cause me absolutely any future problems of any type, including any mental, psychological, emotional and or physical health problems . . .
SLEEP: . . . and or anything directly or indirectly contributing to factors influencing and or determining when I sleep, how long I sleep for and or how well I sleep and or how refreshed/recharged/how well I feel in all ways when I wake up/get up and or anything contributing to myself under sleeping, oversleeping/sleeping too much and or anything contributing to myself sleeping out of phase with the normal waking, sleeping cycle and or waking up tired and or contributing to myself being disturbed while I sleep and or via being presented with dreams of specific pre-defined content specifically to ‘negatively’ impact myself . . . and or anything directly or indirectly contributing to factors influencing and or determining when I sleep, how long I sleep for and or how well I sleep and or how refreshed/recharged/how well I feel in all ways when I wake up/get up and or anything contributing to myself under sleeping, oversleeping/sleeping too much and or anything contributing to myself sleeping out of phase with the normal waking, sleeping cycle and or waking up tired and or contributing to myself being disturbed while I sleep and or via being presented with dreams of specific pre-defined content specifically to ‘negatively’ impact myself . . .
AGEING/OLD AGE: . . . and or anything directly or indirectly contributing to factors influencing and or determining how I age and or the degradation, depreciation of any aspect/part of and or combinations of aspects/parts/functioning of my physical body any/all cognitive, mental, feeling, emotional, physiological, psychological and or any psycho/spiritual issues and or any spiritual/subtle body functioning aspects/factors and or experiences/impacts directly or indirectly and or ‘symbolically’ used to influence/negatively impact the physical body and or any/any neural, receptor, hormonal and or emotional aspects and or any other known, unknown and or made up physical and or subtle <> physical body influencing factors and or regulatory systems and or networks and or combinations of these and particularly ANY that on there own and or in any combination are working towards causing any specific degradation and or that will result in any known and or unknown aliments/diseases and or other known and or unknown impacts/effects . . .
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April 19, 2020 @ 3:32 am
I was a warrior in many past lives. I fought many people. I hated many people, and I’ve killed many people. I saw myself fighting not out of hate, but because others were helpless and didn’t know how to or couldn’t do it, and someone had to help them.
My own anger and resentment towards others and their greed/selfishness/pain/helplessness/laziness/???make sense if I’ve literally gotten killed to save people who have taken my generosity and sacrifice for granted.
I was a very vocal/blunt/forthcoming skeptic (I have not studied Greek skepticism yet though) and criticized a lot of people in how they did and handled things. I think this has been taken to the extreme here. I often feel like I’m living/being as two different people. I can be extremely negative about something (usually taking the side of the person I am talking to, or I can be extremely positive and supportive to the person to make them feel better or validate their own bias/view of reality. Mentally and emotionally I am sick and tired of trying to be positive and happy and supportive when this does nothing more than perpetuate the victimhood of everyone around me. On the negative side, I also try to heavily sensor myself to not be so negative. I will either ignore and brush off the conversation, or give a weak, uneducated answer or try to stay silent. This constant back and forth with no real grounding just make me not wanting to talk at all. I feel a slight pain/soreness in my throat after writing this.
I’m reminded of a period of time, back when I was just getting started in the New Age stuff plus using Clive’s old lightworker focused handbook, and I had this very strong sense of patriotism towards the United States, or at least towards the ideal and principles it was founded upon. I remember I had this idea of re-writing the Constitution to get rid of the power struggle between the two parties and some of the issues that I saw that needed to be taken care of. I even had this grand idea of running for President and I could see myself living in the White House, but unlike how it is now, it would be completely open and the homeless would be allowed to live there and people would be allowed to play on the lawn. Reflecting on how I felt, it reminds me of how I feel when reading about the Founding Fathers and the Constitution and the creation of America.
I realize that something is messing with my sense/desire/??? For romance, sexuality, romantic-sexual relationships, etc.
I had this thought the other day, but are the Akashic Records data files of the pre-defined/pre-choreographed interactions/lives we live out strictly here in the EAAS or does it include our lives out there, plus what the designers/directors of this place wanted us to experience in here?
I’m tired of using spirit-keeping as a means of meeting other spirits and accessing the subtle realms. I’m crying in frustration now because I don’t know how to consciously do this. I think I am also doing it as way of getting attention. I see myself standing before those that I’ve brought into my life, and I feel like I’ve messed up again somehow.
I realize that a part of myself is fighting against the WSW teams because they are trying to access things that I have fought to repress/run away from/keep hidden. Wounds I didn’t want to remember or I wanted to forget/erase, and I think this may be directly tied into my ability to interact with spirits/subtle energy and other realms. I also get the impression that some of this has to do with the abduction or whatever happened to my original self, but the original circumstances have been twisted into a narrative where I was ignored/abandoned/neglected by my friends and family. I also realize that there are a lot of things in this world that heavily influenced my own bias/misconceptions/ideas of spirits and the subtle realms. I feel a tingling in my lips after writing this.
I wonder if my ideas/expectations/concepts of power are influenced too. Like the bigger, better, more powerful my intentions/focus/righteousness (think big shiny things with lots of explosions) is used against something, then it should be absolutely resolve/destroy the problem. Kind of reminds me of how violent Disney is becoming and those flashy superhero movies.
They never listened to me. When they didn’t listen to me, I tried to leave/run away, but I constantly found myself getting stuck and had to accept there was nothing I could do and nothing was going to change. Apathy is a conditioned response, and I don’t feel apathetic because I want to, but because I sense that the trauma or whatever I had been through was so great this was the only way to survive/cope with it.
I see my roommate and I talking and I know she thinks I am nuts and judges me constantly. I see myself talking to her, yelling at her, arguing with her, trying to tell her something, and she isn’t listening to me, she just has her head buried in her phone just like everyone else, and I feel a pressure in my solar plexus silencing me.
I look around my room and I feel as if my world is getting cramped and incredibly small.
I remember a time in middle school when I was a member of an improv group and we were performing a skit for a 4th grade class. We were answering questions after our performance and someone had asked the question as to whether two of our members, who played a couple during the skit, were actually dating, which was a no. At this point I did not get to speak and no one asked me questions, suddenly opened my mouth saying something along the lines of, ‘can you really see these two dating each other.’ The whole room went silent and I made a fool out of myself. Feeling into this, I see that I was purposely set up like this. Like the expectations of the ideal female are to be submissive, obedient, silent, weak and stupid, I was purposely set up into situations that kept me into such a state, to be and feel unworthy, unnoticeable, and to not make a fuss so I couldn’t do anything ‘wrong’ in other words be knowledgeable, independent, assertive, competent, better, etc. I suddenly feel frustrated because I would like to be doing more and making more money in my life but that requires more hard work, more education (more money) yet I feel my freedom is in living in poverty without the fancy education. This reminds me of the good is bad/bad is good concept that has been mentioned before. I reflect on my current job and where I hope to go and where it will take me and I feel frustrated because I believe, from how my co-workers treat me/judge me, I believe I have already failed. I feel frustrated like it’s no use continuing and want to walk away. I want all of it to go away. I see myself standing before my co-workers and I have to accept outside of the work I do, I am not accepted or welcomed by any of them.
Heh, I hope this focus help shed all this stubborn belly fat…This thought reminded me of a passage from a book I am reading that says that the Greek idea of a perfect, ideal reality was one that was constant and unchanging while a reality that was in flux and changing was considered weak.
April 20, 2020 @ 3:08 am
This has come up quite a bit recently and I don’t know what to think of it.
As I have said before in comments I read fanfiction and had written some stories in the past that I was unable to get off the ground. Back in December, I realized that the main character in the story actually was a part of my self that I had split off and put into another reality for safe keeping or to keep under control (he contained a lot of hurt and anger and to some effect was my want/ability/will/intention to effect change or do something.) I reintegrated him sometime around Christmas break and threw out the rough drafts for the story a couple months later (guidance told me to do so because I was still feeling pushed and stressed out over writing the stories (well, I was pushing and getting frustrated with myself for not doing anything with them) but they were the old, traumatic originals written on paper that was holding that crap in my space.) I will also admit I am kind of an internal adrenaline junkie when it comes to a great story (I can be hooked on particular plot points for hours in my mind.) A lot of this crap had died down after throwing out the rough drafts.
Anyway, recently a scene from the story I wanted to write has been coming back. The main character had gone mad, and he was fighting another character who was there to facilitate his ‘spiritual awakening’ (he pretty much runs the main character through the gut with his sword which shatters the main characters own delusions and barriers to the spirit world, but at the same time it threatens the main characters life which only he can save once he accepts the raw power he has been running from/denying.) This particular scene the main character and his opponent are fighting off the side of a building. Thing is this fight scene in its own way is not original. As much as I had ‘made it up’ for the story it is almost exactly like the fight scene from the movie-sequel to the video game. I see the character I made and he is mimicking the actions of the main character of the movie and internally I am feeling as if I am pushed to carry on and keep fighting despite feeling tired and done with everything.
I felt into what I was seeing a bit more and I get ‘neural gaming network.’ I’m going to do the GUI/HUD Implant exercise as well as the VR Avatar exercise, but if there is anything else you would recommend, I’d appreciate it.
April 22, 2020 @ 1:36 am
4-20-2020
I am not receiving the expected responses/reactions from everyone around me, especially from my roommate, co-workers and even Clive. I realized that something was causing me to comment in order to bait Clive into responding, or it was making me believe you were someone I would expect to normally be in my life so was expecting something in return. I also realize that I got into spirit keeping in hopes of either finding or replacing those I am missing in my life.
I believe that I am defective and unworthy of love.
I wanted to starve myself to lose weight, also to punish myself for my poor habits and inability to take care of myself, yet I always end up making or eating too much because food is a great comfort to me and I’m emotionally attached to it in a way. It’s about the only comfort I have when I am PMSing. I really hate taking care of this body and I suspect that my original form didn’t interface to the physical world too often simply by how hard it has been to even get myself to be interested or care about my physical well-being.
I realize that my apathy is a form of hatred towards the world.
Doing the VR Experience Exercise 2, I realize that the longest fanfic I had wanted to write based on the video game, Final Fantasy VII, was a self-created VR space that I had placed a part of myself, a part I believed to be weaker, in to heal it or take care of it.
4-21-2020
I woke up feeling burnt out and lethargic so I use the latest focus and second to latest focus before work. I connect to feelings of anger/bitterness/resentment towards my supervisor and the whole auditing process we are forced to do at work. I see myself finally breaking down and screaming at him in frustration telling him that it isn’t my job or responsibility to do these audits; that nobody cares nor do they want to do them anyway. It is our job to get the work done. It is not our responsibility to be in charge of the process.
It seems like I take things like this, even my burnout/weakness, like a warrior. I don’t want to be seen as weak. I can’t be weak or vulnerable.
I feel a deep and dark feeling of apathy takes hold, resonating from my gut/solar plexus area, and I feel this intense hatred for those I regularly deal with and am close to. I have been alone in my fight to resolve my issues and figure things out. There has been no compassion or empathy for my struggle or any understanding or even a want to understand. I see all the people who have complained to me about how frustrating their lives have been and I want to shriek at them, “I don’t care! It’s their own fault their lives suck!” I reflect on this and I think your teams are working a criticizer/skeptic part of my script if my internal reactions are anything to go by. I’ve noticed that since I am not feeling like shit all of the time or feel like I am being attacked anytime I speak up, I realize my snarky, negative side is emerging more and more. I’m concerned that I’m going to end of saying something to someone that I am going to regret.
May 6, 2020 @ 1:21 am
So, within the last two weeks of using this focus, I noticed that it didn’t hurt to work on my knees when working on the concrete floor without a knee pad. Before this latest focus, it always hurt to work on the floor without a knee pad and I would always be sensitive to it, like my kneecaps were being dislodged and forced into the joint.
I am still buying too much food at one time or will make more food than what is needed, I almost feel anxious when I do so. I think I had several lifetimes when I was poor and struggle to eat or find food. I am still struggling with the self-love aspect of eating food and taking care of my body. What I saw was that any relationships I had with others had always been distant, I had no real emotional connection with others, but food made me feel good and made up for the connection and nurturing I lacked from others. What I saw was that the more I ate the uglier I became, even though eating made me happy, and the more people would avoid me. I really suck at sticking to healthy eating habits and to dieting because it feels like a punishment of sorts.
Yesterday, the tip of an audio testing cable broke off in the audio port of a computer I was testing, and after my supervisor came into the area, obviously irritated and upset about what happened and asking how it happened and what I did to cause the problem to happen, I would like to note that for once I did not feel the amount of humiliation and self-punishment that I usually experience with similar incidents in the past. I didn’t cry over it for once and my mind kicked into streamlining the work and getting it done.
I started reading The Color of Magic from Terry Prackett’s Discworld series, and to be honest it feels more like a Dungeons and Dragons game, especially when it talked of the Gods playing with the lives of the main characters in a game themselves. I am curious though, since the idea of the World Turtle and World Elephant are familiar to those of Hindu, Chinese and Native American mythology does that mean these cultures come from similar Discworld like realities? Actually, it reminds me of a time where I was terrified to write or even daydream about anyone or anything, whether I made it up or it was borrowing someone else’s work, because I was afraid that whatever I was putting the characters through was legitimately hurting someone or using them for my own selfish desires.
June 16, 2020 @ 1:52 pm
Hi Clive, Your focus on what is degrading the physical body has been a useful focus. It’s been annoying me for some time that it’s hard to even get the time to have a routine to keep fit and know what sort of exercise is useful and to avoid injuring the body. As it happens I’ve been in furlough the last several weeks and have been attempting to look after myself – and it’s hard! I have now the time do exercise/walking but I realise that I need another ‘expert’ osteopath and exercise coach. I’m in my 40’s and seeing the inexorable slide, and my feelings are that I can only do so much – feeling a bit hopeless. When/if I get back to work, it will be a shame to lose the momentum. Our working routines/living is mostly just sitting down and staring at a screen – ‘the cave’ is getting smaller and I had a weird dream that my body atrophied so much my legs were underdeveloped and all that mattered was my brain, but then that felt like it was going to mush as well. Your focus on depression and everything sabotaged was spot on. So I’m in lockdown/furlough and that sad fact is that without a job making me do something I’m at a bit of a loss. I feel like I’ve been an automaton. I have some small hobbies but the main thing has been procrastinating about really considering what I should be doing with myself – some kind of motivating goal. I just can’t really go there without getting stressed and most of my life has been stuck because I can’t stand the ‘self inflicted’ stress/anxiety around ‘being the best possible version of myself’. I go round and round and have ha ‘coaches’ annoyed at me for being so stuck/stubborn. Reading your focuses has been hard the last few weeks, but gave the one above a go again today and wanted to feedback to you.