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1. Clive
   March 11, 2017 @ 5:32 pm

   New Exercise post: Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiences

2. rudolfcabo
   March 13, 2017 @ 5:48 pm

   yesterday i worked with exercise 8 focuses and after retiring for
   the night i felt and saw a blue light hook up at the bottom of my spine, ride it up to my brain and did like a scan. i also saw green and brown data tapes moving through a hole in a wall plus some really weird stuff i can’t even remember but clearly connected to the vr.

   • Clive
     March 23, 2017 @ 3:21 pm

     As you seem to have VR experiences you might find it interesting to try some of the VR exercises which are at the top down on this list here

3. Megan
   March 13, 2017 @ 8:51 pm

   Reflecting on the last two weeks, I get the feeling that nobody really pays attention when I talk to them or when I am trying to say something they think I am giving them attitude or trying to talk over them when I am not. I remember how anxious and distrusting I can be with people, especially people I work with. A coworker has been making a few implications that make me feel defensive. I also realized the lack of connection or intimacy I have with others, especially people I know and get along with.

   Starting the first exercise, I feel a barrier of sorts relating to my lack of connection with people and I feel disconnected or dead inside.

   Before beginning the third paragraph I sense a feeling of reluctance to move forward not just with the exercise but with anything in life.

   Thoughts of a romantic fanfic I’ve read recently pop into my mind, and I remember back in my younger teenage years all the desperate and needy feelings I had regarding people and relationships and how hurt and humiliated I was to feel this way. Bearing that in mind, thoughts of the barrier I mentioned before pop back into my mind.

   I cry a little, thinking about how disconnected I am with others and the dead feeling I have relating to the issue.

4. Annabelle
   March 13, 2017 @ 9:51 pm

   I mentioned this before – but my vision has significantly /suddenly deteriorated (after 2 sessions of laser surgery, for mono vision, and 20 years of consistent vision). My eyes were burning and my eye lids started peeling. Finally gave up and went to an ophthalmologist who said I need glasses – not helpful – they did however say your right eye is very dry – let’s fix the tear duct. I then went to an Optometrist who actually took the time to explain that my vision had flipped from a reading left eye to full extreme distance zoom in my left eye, and a weak right eye, and no reading capability in any eye. I asked how that could be – how can my eyes just switch? “Well – it can happen”. The only solution was a reading contact now in my weaker right eye. I was concerned as my eyes are too dry for contacts – well guess what – the other doctor had coincidentally fixed that. It has now taken me a week to adjust thru the nausea and dizziness, but my vision now is awesome. I was nudged to do the Visual Implant exercise #1 and found myself distracted by high tech vision implants and not getting anything.
   I then moved to this new exercise and realized how I really feel, about my vision, is disturbed /angry/confused that they would change my vision overnight without my consent, without warning and a reason and what this is for? This caused me significant wasted time searching for solutions, dietary possibilities, etc. with no help. I wondered how any other animal could even survive if this had happened to them.
   “Scripted trauma” – I connect to interactions with people where they don’t proactively tell me/ or talk to me at all about how they feel (but somehow expect me to understand and react accordingly). I can tell something is wrong (I can feel it a mile away), that they are hurt, upset, scared, unhappy, and I jump thru hoops trying to diagnose them. I assume what they need at times and this causes me to feel anxious and even more depressed.
   “Support me to remain unresponsive” – I actually feel I am the opposite and I feel responsible for everything that happens everywhere. I am completely overwhelmed by others’ feelings, such as a woman getting yelled at by her husband in a restaurant – or a child not being helped in public. I think of how I can help and put things in place in society to fix all of this. At times this is unbearable and I find myself, most recently, trying to distance myself from these feelings of trying to fix everything. If only I could get a job in the government, if only I could help all of the college students, if only I could help people grow their own food……
   Sabotaging effects while working on portion 1 (and other exercises) – I won’t even mention the fact that my phone died and I had to buy a new phone! In addition – the exercise is very long/ enticing and I find myself jumping around wanting to see all of the sections instead of focusing on a specific portion.
   Another sabotaging aspect it that for some reason I have been hearing sound bites, from the 60’s/70’s, around town, and this has been transporting me back to my childhood to an age I want to return to (I am literally in a trance and numb for about a minute) – I feel so homesick and sad that it is hard to pull myself out of…………….

5. Rose
   March 15, 2017 @ 12:54 pm

   For many days I have been dreaming very long, very detailed dreams, which have me wake up feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Some of them feel like long ‘family sagas’ type dramas, not ‘my own family’ as I know it here, but a mix of people I know and people I don’t know and many storylines I don’t recognise or feel related to. But also some that I do, like this morning’s dream which had lots of ‘archetypal (type) symbols’ in it and a lot of ‘women’ stuff and women I ‘know’ in ‘surprising’ narratives.

   I did the “Influence, Infiltration of Sleep, Dreams, Sub Conscious, Symbolic, Archetype & Collective Conscious ‘Managing’ Influences”, which then had me experience a large ‘space’ which felt ‘very Jungian’, full of ‘archetypes and symbols’ and a feelings of ‘being in a collective unconsciousness space’ in lots of different ‘layers’, that seemed to ‘activate’ at different times or circumstances.

   I felt very ‘trapped in there’ and it all felt like something that had been ‘forced upon me’. And I started seeing and remembering ‘states’ I have been in earlier in this life (many years ago), and which all led to destroying my life and breaking me down. In one of those phases I was in very extreme and strange things, which I (back then) wondered if was the so called ‘lower astral planes’, many new age people talked about. While also experiencing myself as having ‘dissolved as a person’, and having ‘drowned in the collective unconscious’. And I saw and felt myself back then I during the meditation where I experienced ‘loosing my body and becoming like a ‘pillar of light’ from the heart level and up’, while being completely flooded in ultra extreme fears, which lasted for the next 15 years or so. Same as the feeling of being ‘non physical’ and ‘unable to relate to the physical’, which is very difficult when you ‘live’ (as a simulated being) in a (simulated) ‘physical reality’.

   And I thought more abut Jung and his concepts of ‘Anima and Animus’, ‘the masculine in women’ and ‘the feminine in men’, which his whole ‘depth psychology’ was built around, together with the ‘collective unconscious’ and the ‘archetypes’ concepts. I used to read lots of mainly pretty ‘feminist’ woman Jungian writers as a teenager and young (when the time was also very ‘feminist’). And used to feel, also before I began having extreme ‘experiences’ that it was ‘the only language I could relate to’ (archetypes and symbols) and ‘the only language that could ‘see me”. And later when I lived in kundalini extremes and everything was ‘symbolic’ and I felt I was living in a ‘symbol soup’ and every tiny detail of everything was ‘synchronistic’, it was ‘all there was’.

   And I wondered if the ‘Jungian psychology’ had been made ‘here’ (in the simulation) to ‘catch’ people (like myself) who never felt the common ways of calling certain personality traits for ‘masculine’ and ‘feminine’ were OK or real, and never accepted that to be ‘true’. Maybe people who could feel or sense ‘something from their original state as not yet split up into male and female parts’ for example. Or missing the other half of them, and lots of their traits and ways of functioning, which had suddenly been ‘lost’ or ripped away, out of reach or ‘forbidden’. Or who were very intent on unravelling everything that had caused all the imbalances’ and to rebalance it again, which I was obsessed with for a large part of my life, experiencing all the ‘gender stereotypes’ and inequality shit as more and more extreme. Even though I have been exposed to way less of it, than most other people probably. Both in my upbringing, my parents, my ‘culture’ (here and now), my relationships etc.

   So not (so) much has been done to try to make me into a ‘perfect woman’ (I did that focus too), also not in the past lives I know of. In which I have been very ‘untypical for my time’ in different times and cultures, and especially for the ‘gender roles’. And have been ‘very independent and strong’ etc and done ‘male’ things, like fighting in battles and writing books about gender inequality in times where that was considered to be ‘obscene’ and ‘extreme’ and thing like that. And where I was broken down or killed for it, and /or had broken out of forced upon me ‘perfect women’ roles, I couldn’t accept (getting divorced at a time when that was also considered to be very extreme and ‘bad’).

   And when being in the ‘collective unconsciousness’ space today, I then felt that to be the ‘punishment’ and ‘prison’ and ‘containment’ (VR?) I had been trapped within, because attempts to make me into a complying or submissive or ‘perfect’ woman, would not have worked.

   When I then did the “Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiences & Symptomatic ‘Effects'” focus (while ‘reminding myself of lots of related things, from the last days and today), I got extreme pressures on my head and brain and feelings of very strong ‘containments’. It all felt very strongly ‘against women’ and against things like (so- called) ‘female intuition’, ‘all ‘independent’ or ‘strong’ personality traits in women’, and as myself ‘as woman’.

   The feelings of being ‘imprisoned’ and ‘suppressed’ and ‘contained’ got extremely strong and crushing. And felt as if my whole being is ‘contained like that’, also now where a lot of the ‘kundalini’ and far out ‘psychedelic’ shit I spent so many years in, is gone or isn’t like that any longer (even though some other parts of it is still there and very bad still, pains and other shit).

   It got almost impossible to think or write the moment I started writing this comment (some hours later), and I got the same extreme pressures on and in the head and pains around the head (in a way I am not used to, so it must be something ‘new’ this hits), vision distortions and very strong burning pains in the spine and neck (I am very used to that, and it is directly connected with the kundalini and the symbol soup and drowning in the collective).

   I know quite a few men, who had also had extreme kundalini and other similar things, and had their lives destroyed to various extend, all of whom are pretty ‘feminist’ too, and into things around ‘balance between masculine and feminine’ (and men and women), also as something ‘spiritual’, and who have been doing things like ‘searching for ‘goddess archetypes’ (of the powerful kind) that/’who’ could help them/they could ‘integrate” and things like that.

   So they are probably trapped in the same kind of containment/prison, directed at ‘men’. And the same ‘collective unconsciousness prison’, making them ‘search for the integration of the opposite polarity’, while ‘drowning’ and be seriously messed up as ‘individuals’. None of them are ‘perfect men’ or find the gender stereotypes for either gender OK, and would not have bought into strong attempts to make them into/do that.

   I can still see and feel the ‘Jungian/archetype/collective unconsciousness’ space around me. It looks ‘very large’, but is definitely ‘limited’, like some kind of ‘room’, with ‘strong walls’. It ‘looks’ and feels very much like a VR now. A ‘space’ you can get trapped in or drown in ‘searching forever’, like you can in psychologies or symbol based ‘therapies’ like that, like ‘dream analysis’ and ‘Animus/Anima’ things. Which never really provide any tools to actually get out of those ‘issues’, only endless ‘recognition’ (recognising the archetypes and symbols in yourself, your life, in endless combinations), like a labyrinth you will never get out of, at least not after your personality and consciousness has been ‘flooded’ and the (necessary) boundaries guarding your ‘mental health’ have been dissolved.

   I feel it as if ‘part of me’ (or ‘all’?) has been in something like this for ‘millions of years’. Maybe it was easy to convince people already used to (well functioning) ‘shared space’ technology and functions to ‘enter’ spaces like this, if you are used to operating in ‘shared consciousness’, then ‘shared unconsciousness will seem the obvious ‘next step to explore’ (even though it is artificial and not natural or real, it will feel that way and if you should realise that (or that you have become trapped), it is too late anyway).

6. Tommy
   March 17, 2017 @ 7:20 pm

   Im pretty much unable to do the focusses properly i blank out distractions put off the whole 9 yards. I get angry unruly and i go into straight up asshole mode. What ever im connecting too im inadequate too properly deal with it remove it i am very immature i go bonkers the shouting in my head get louder i feel like the whole distant manipulation shit show gets worse and my body acts up lots of blocks. I was discribed as someone who has a jekyll and mister hyde traits. Well the focusses bring out hyde and well it isnt fun i turn very manipulative and vengefull i want everyone responsible to fucking bleed for what has been done to me. In that distant shitshow explaination distant shitshow is being possed by others and distant conversations that happen like im telepathic or something its bloody anoying i want to fight back and screw things up for others. Like telepathic warfare you are fucking around with my head cool two can play that game im very petty i just let everyone have a little slice of my madness. Possing me cool i can also do that i just go and sit in your energyfield.

7. Jean
   March 22, 2017 @ 5:36 am

   There seems to be more negative feedback in my daily life when I try to understand the focus statements, more distractions, more brain fog, more negative emotions. It was working really well for 1 week, then backlash, it seems. But I am more motivated to continue, because for one day it worked beautifully, I understood more of what I was doing intuitively. It felt like I could actually make my life better, better ‘luck’ coming my way.

8. rudolfcabo
   March 23, 2017 @ 12:34 am

   worked with focus 1 of exercise 8 and once in bed, i felt things landing on it and start to work on me. i thought:”sim, knock it off”, and it went away. later that night i woke up and felt the same thing. again i told sim to knock it off and not to reengage after i fell asleep. did the sleep infiltration focus today to see if i could stop sim in it’s tracks.

9. Annabelle
   March 23, 2017 @ 7:30 pm

   Management seems to have significantly increased in the last week. Many areas I was targeting to include myself, family member and even pet are 80% worse. For the last month, up to last week, there was an improvement that I was happy about. I wonder why this all got worse and feel confused like I am doing something wrong or maybe it never got better – and feel bad for my family member and pet as they would not know why this is happening. I feel now like I have to patch up holes that are leaking causing things to regress. I feel like I need to dig into this and figure out why this is failing. Button pushing by other people is quite bad and synchronistic /weird events have increased as follows:
   1. Went into a small produce store to get a papaya for a special recipe I wanted to try – circled the produce section and could not find any. Proceeded to other portions of the store and then was nudged to go back to produce. I saw a basket that I missed the first time, with a sign that said “Papayas” and grabbed one. Once at the check-out, the lady picked it up and asked me “what is this?” I said it is a papaya – and then we looked at each other. It was not a papaya – it was a mango – and I know the difference between these foods I knew what was going on (flash re-played this all in my head) – I said “you have a basket that is labeled papayas that really has mangoes in them”. We walked back to produce and the produce manager said –“I have no idea how that could happen – we have not had papayas for along time and I don’t even know where the sign came from.”
   2. Walked past a public snack area with global news blasting on a TV – the commenter said “This world situation is serious – this is not a simulation! People have to follow the rules”
   3. Cognitive dissonance – Tried talking to a few people about their way of thinking about medical issues and they really became obstinate and hostile and said – “you can’t honestly believe that – where is your proof!”
   4. Within one week 3 good friends became very ill – I felt weird (like this is not going to turn out well/timelines flying by) and one by one, a day and time popped in my head – they all passed exactly on that day and time. (And this has happened to me for decades – very creeped out being able to know when someone is going to pass.
   5. A lady plows in front of me at the salad bar – I was irritated – but then – before getting mad – felt – this is not going to turn out well – she got distracted talking to a friend and dropped her phone in the salad dressing and her whole salad all over the floor
   6. Took an alternate route home and just as I was driving over a set of railroad tracks, the red lights came on the gate started to come down. Forgot about this the next day and the exact same things happened
   7. Increase in traumatic dreams about family members being abusive to me – causing me to wake with a distorted opinion of them

   • Clive
     April 3, 2017 @ 10:43 am

     Hi Annabelle / everyone, we are still getting ‘pockets’ of restore and new ‘managing’ shit activating ‘occasionally’, although it’s getting less and less. Today as I write this there is nothing ‘independent’ i.e. initiated by the simOS or MVOS to fuck up people. BUT there might be some activate tomorrow that we’ve not been able to pre-detect!!! So, in a general sense ‘shit’ effects are like to be ‘managing / suppressing’ effects still encoded into the scripts that re getting ‘worried’ about our progress. I.e. it’ll be getting harder for scripted shit to stay hidden and particularly with the latest ‘progress’ (explained in the intro of exercise-9.

     Sorry, everyone I’m ‘really/seriously’ busy, no time to ‘think about / answer’ comments, just focused on stripping our fake reality down / make sure we can ‘sort every last thing out’ ASAP!!!

10. alexandre henri
    March 24, 2017 @ 2:36 am

    okay. welcome to the matrix. I did this stuff this morning. stumble upon your website yesterday? two days ago? Just read the ‘matrix 20pages evidence stuff’ well. yesterday, I experimented the xkill phenomena. If you know linux, there is a command of that name that enable you to kill an app cliking on it. that is not supposed to happen in a public library!!! up to having to reboot! so many problem to get concentrated to read yesterday bits here and there of this material… this so smart very intelligent guy. Oh, and this book could help me! gosh not! too old!! oh man… well this morning, the same. I came in the public library primarily to dive in these infos. Maybe two, three hours after browsing everything I can manage to try focus on this; and having SO much difficulties, almost falling asleep.. a bit later so much pain in my ankle…. later so agitated my body wanted to go away… reading the ‘big article’ three time before realizing I was supposed to read the ‘below’ and not above this way.. Well the least is to say it is making question some things…
    I can say I am in individuation protocol, for 6 month now in brazil having worked intensivly with santo daime, leading me to enter other subtilities of the world… glitches? ufos? ghost? I experimented having been possessed by a ghost after having seen him in front of me before, feeling a weird intention to begin with, and then bim! possessed! up to realizing ” come on this anxiety shit happening in my head I have processed this already!” making her go away… I have worked with preto velho in la barquinha (you may know), which helped me a lot, along with some remineralisation procedure (drlwilson…) recovering from so much deep shit. but wait… my last session with the preto velho I was about to commit suicide, and he made some stuff telling me to stay eyes closed and guess what – I managed to open them!!! SABOTAGING ?? and then inviting me for some deep work on some date – and guess what – I managed to come one day later – SABOTAGING ? –
    So to come back to this reading. how come when I try to read the links the connection fail? I am using a computer between ten others all working perfectly!
    Oh! and now I try the Dan Neiman stuff… vanished from the net?
    Synchronicities seem to happen.. and still so many shit to clean in me (or issues or whatever calling them; like lack of money, no sex life, lack of grounding ) still feeling strong connections with nature and ‘animal helpers’ (colibri, blue butterfly…) and what? can I trust them? my work with santo daime helped me a lot to clear negativity issues – using praying, cleaning my spirituality… to what extent? here we are now. I feel like diving in the unknown, like some hardcore pnl… I just hope now it will let pass this comment…

11. Rup Singh
    March 24, 2017 @ 7:05 pm

    Hi Clive
    I was reading your post with regards a comment you made about the christion tech and how there was a second crusade and i remembered a dream where i saw a lot of christian types getting there weapons ready any way i thought of this and i was then concerned that i had seen this. Any way i was thinking of this and i remembered a Swedish/Sweden film about Trolls and in the film there is mention of trolls not liking Christians so i was thinking this when something manifested in front of me and sniffed me and went away,so worried i manifested something that is going to target Christians i sort of imagined and hopefully it turned into scooby doo.
    Do you have any idea of the visuals because i do get film like scenes playing out. Also i seem to have very little control over the visuals.
    I was just laying in bed and i see some people dive into me and take something from my heart space.
    Then saw a visual of my head being taken off and someone pours something into my head. Much like a robot head.
    I remember reading you had similar problems with regards to movies playing as you were out and about.

12. Nyssa
    March 27, 2017 @ 8:49 pm

    I keep trying to understand what’s happening, why I’m in such pain, why its so unending and echoing within my body and life. When my pain from my recent physical injury has felt manageable/been medicated to a bearable level, I’ve kept trying the “IMPORTANT – Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiences & Symptomatic ‘Effects’ focus (plus other focuses), and the more I’ve done it, the more I’ve become aware that ALL of my script is ‘shit.’ After doing the focus many dozens of time, I began taking the timeline back, further and further, until ‘the beginning of all time or none-time’.

    I feel like I was originally hooked up to a trauma investigation research system, feelings of having to live out others’ trauma / scripted trauma for research purposes. A feeling of this horror continuing on and on and on for untold eons (feels like it is likely far longer than anyone could imagine), and of being (horribly) aware while being imprisoned thusly (although I sense numerous massive attempts made to blank and lobotomize me/others whom were subjected to this, and other attempts to block any ‘self’ or ‘real identity’ awareness). Realizations and trauma from having to live ‘Nyssa’ and ‘Chani(?)’ and other hellish scripts, and that my own trauma and own real self/identity were stuffed down/ “not allowed”.

    This feels like it’s playing out ‘here’ where I struggle with/ feel ‘not allowed’ to give feedback / share impressions that aren’t part of the research project ie part of these scripted experiences. There is a vast body of experiences I’ve had and impressions I’ve gotten from focuses that feel ‘impossible to communicate’ – I’ve had to target this feeling dead-on multiple times just to be able to write this comment about ‘not being able to express this’.

    Also, attempts to speak up about what the REAL me is REALLY experiencing, (ie, the REAL me that is experiencing the ‘having to experience the “Nyssa/others scripted experiences” ‘) feel silenced, muffled, not allowed, and have also been reacted against STRONGLY ‘in real life’ over the past couple years when I DID try to communicate a small piece of it; I’ve written about these previously. In other words, I feel like I can share the Nyssa/others scripted experiences that I’m going through here (which is extreme and inescapable), but not what I am REALLY going through behind the scenes (even more extreme and inescapable).

    Then, feelings that re “the MV Nyssa /others” scripted experiences, I feel like it plays out like an ‘MV sink hole’, where shit rolls more and more preferentially to me. I connect to attitudes of ‘she can handle it’, ‘she’s made for it’, ‘she’s agreed to do this’ (more like FORCED, imprisoned, and brainwashed, but their attitudes seem to ignore that ‘little’ fact), ‘she’s designed to handle trauma’, etc, so more and more of trauma rolls to me, like how a planet folds and bends the fabric of space, creating gravitational fields that pulls objects toward them.

    So I’m feeling multiple layers of extreme trauma:

    – that of being a massive gravitational field like a giant planet or a black hole, designed to suck out people’s trauma “because I’m designed for it” (those assholes);

    – that of being part of a trauma research system, waiting for another batch of scripted trauma to be ported to me for me to ‘experience’ and ‘research’ and ‘provide analysis of’ back to the research controller (more assholes);

    – and that of the real me, imprisoned under all of this. The real me whom is NOT my script – and is also AWARE that I am not my script(s) – but whose trauma shall-NOT-be-expressed because it’s not part of this shitty unending MV experiment analysis. So I feel “not allowed” to speak of it for fear of ‘brutal retaliation’, and thus I feel trauma from ‘being aware of the horrors I’m being subjected to while I’m experiencing them’, of being aware I can’t escape the shitty script that’s inflicting the horrors, and of not being permitted to access nor express nor permanently deal with any of my own personal trauma from any of this. (Finally accessing this trauma today uncovered a raw grief that cannot be described in words)

    ^ I suppose the bright spot in this is I was able to keep digging and digging, targeting these effects over many many sessions, going further and further back, to be able to write about this ‘effect’. So that’s progress!

    Note: for the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m back to ‘deconstructing’ and ‘processing data’ about what I’m experiencing. Which feels in part ‘bizarrely self-referential’ (ie processing data about my experiences of being used as a research tool that deconstructs scripted experiences and processes them into data), but also seems to point to a new level that’s finally beginning to be accessed.

13. Evelyn Hunter
    January 7, 2018 @ 6:08 pm

    Paralyzing lower back pain. Images of being raped, murdered, my children massacred in front of me. Me smiling and saying it’s all an illusion. Neo. They can kill me but I will still be here, smiling, for I created Them. All emotions are illusory control mechanisms, as is this ‘battle’.

14. Sha
    March 12, 2018 @ 12:11 pm

    Yesterday’s interactions with others on forums on the internet, brought me out of my usual ‘shutdown’ space, into a more alert/ aware & ‘sensitive’ space.
    So i woke this morning with some sensitivity to myself, subtle energies & how i am impacted by my environment.

    After an hour or so of being awake, i felt quite ‘dreadful’, had the usual stomach pain i have in this ‘more aware’ space & felt blocked & in much emotional discomfort.

    I took a food enzyme first, & then decided to do the above focus to see if it would / could help clear the adverse affects i was experiencing.

    On reading through half of the first paragraph, i began to get subtle energy sensations in my abdomen, solar plexus area.

    It felt like ocean waves moving in & out on the shore-line, but in a very much speeded-up version of it.

    On the out flow, i could feel the uncomfortable energy leaving, this continued for a few mins. – that particular emotional / energy discomfort was cleared.

    On completing the focus, i feel peaceful, calm [almost like being ‘slowed-down’] & grounded [like being ‘weighted-down’]

    Great results 🙂

    ….thanks

15. farrah hachey
    January 25, 2020 @ 8:27 am

    Um, just curious…but why would you want to connect with something that would prevent you from connecting with God/Source or the collective consciousness? Also, why would you want to connect with whatever is preventing someone from “hacking and reading about fake, alternate and deceptive realities”? I don’t understand why you would want to connect with whatever it is that is preventing oneself from connecting to or accomplishing these things? You’re connecting to what is preventing or blocking you from accomplishing these things when wouldn’t a person want to connect to what would allow these connections or make them possible? It seems completely absurd that someone would want to be completely devoid of any connection with God/Source/Creator…and not sure what the focus is on the hacking and reading about alternate realities thing is about? I don’t really understand what it is you’re trying to achieve with these statements?? If you’re connected with spiritual hierarchies and such, is that not the same as connecting with a Higher Power, Source, Angels, etc.?? Sorry,…not trying to be rude or anything. I’m honestly just really confused by your list of statements. Have you yourself connected to whatever is blocking or preventing you from achieving, doing, blocking, or having memories of certain events? And if so, how did connecting to the block of these things help you gain insight, memories or whatever it was you wished to achieve. I found some connection to a few of your articles and do believe that we are quite likely living in some sort of matrix or simulated reality. I’ve just come to discover this lately and am pretty scared by the whole thing. I’ve had a bunch of paranormal, chaotic, bizarre and traumatizing events happen in my life since 1979 or so. I’m glad to have come across your site since I’ve had nobody to talk to about these events. Everyone seems to be so oblivious or unaware of things that are going on all around us. The fake, scripted events…it’s hard to tell if anyone or anything is actually real anymore. I feel so lost, isolated and completely alone. If you have some time to reply I’d really appreciate it. Great site, cheers:-)

    • Clive
      January 25, 2020 @ 6:00 pm

      I suggest that you read a lot more of this site and maybe the actual front page which gives a decent although general/progression in terms of unfolding changing understandings/approaches!!! Exactly how would you expect to gain experience or understanding by completely relying on invisible perhaps imaginary others to sort things out for you. How would you expect to understand something/anything/your own or anyone else’s issues EXCEPT by exploring WTF IS CAUSING/CONTRIBUTING TO THEM!!!! Your comment is pretty ‘schizophrenic’ Farrah

16. Melissa
    September 21, 2020 @ 10:35 pm

    Last night I was at my brothers house and we were watching a movie and It was like I could see people crawling at the bottom of the floor then I heard someone inside my body say that If I get my heart back that she wont get her life back. Then I felt energy enter my body and voices entering in saying “oh you want me to be here now” entering through my feet. Then I felt that I could breathe deeply in my body which I have not been able to do in ages because I have had breathing problems. Then I heard a woman say “can you stop her breathing?” and it was like someone put something in my chest that stopped the rise and fall of breathing in my stomach and then someone else say ” Can I put my guilt in there?” and then I felt this painful feeling of guilt enter. Then its like they changed my eyesight several times and I couldnt see as well even though I had glasses on. Then before this it was like I felt these feelings inside me that said I was racist even though my true self is not racist. I love all people. Then I felt in my hand someone saying “He’s with her.” meaning a version of me that wasn’t racist.

    About a month ago I went on a date with someone and it was like I felt like there was someone inside of me that was saying that she wanted him and to come over here because I wasn’t going to sleep with him on the first date and that she could give him what he wanted.

    Then I started smoking and all these voices inside changing the cravings for cigarettes in my body and one of them said that if I didn’t give them a cigarette right now she was going to take my heart away.

    One of them is making my body hurt and if I went back to work and got off government assistance that they would lose their government assistance and that they can’t let me heal and get better.

    I took medication and its like I feel this pain in my heart that is stabbing and feels like that person’s guilt that they stuck inside my body last night.

    These people know how to heal you and how to keep you sick and it’s like they are keeping me sick for some reason.

    I feel they sabotaged my relationship with that date I had and he isn’t even talking to me anymore. They said now its ok if he comes back to me because they accomplished their goal of keeping me sick. They know how to keep me disabled and are doing it for some reason.

    I felt feelings in my heart that I loved the guy that I went out on a date with and that he loved me too but that he was being kept from feeling his feelings for me. That we both loved each other.

17. Xin Ying
    May 12, 2021 @ 10:38 am

    While doing the section on dreams I saw a lone man standing in the dark with a circle of light shining on him (prob a distraction) i also saw tommy’s file for a brief period as well. After doing the exercises I managed to gain access to a vr reprogramming shit where i was being placed in a room where a situation was replayed over and over and got scarier and scarier overtime. I woke up and fell asleep again and the VR space was revealed to be a stage set with the people in my dream talking to me in a friendly fashion. The people I was talking to was a man and a woman and I was discussing with them about healing activities such as group meditation which they mocked. As I have seen these people many times in my dreams I was wondering if they were mentors of mine and the vr reprogramming shit was a form of spy activity. Overall very interesting and I feel i am more sensitive to things going on around me. Will keep trying.

18. Xin Ying
    May 23, 2021 @ 8:04 pm

    I did the one on dreams again. Was very interesting i keep getting muscle twitches (still getting them now as i write). They are mostly at my leg area (hopefully they are energy releases). I also felt another body twitch feeling i have no idea whose it is but i feel i am connected to it in a disembodied way and its twitching as if its in an enclosed area kinda like a cage. The right side of my neck is kinda of pain too (like a pin prick). Was reading on the part about store ,collect save and I saw like a computer file labelled ‘tommy’ again. I couldnt open it but it could be a distraction

19. Xin
    August 16, 2022 @ 1:21 pm

    Had a weird dream last year in november. It was a dream where me and a group of people infiltrated a facility to rescue someone. It felt like a christian facility because of all the high dome shaped architecture. In this dream me and that group of people were looking for something, I found a black piece of cloth on the floor with the name ‘rose’ on it. I was so happy I shouted to the group ‘ I found Rose!’