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I mention; “My sexuality seemed to be almost completely switched off, and this was so even through my late teens AND I wasn’t bothered about this” . . . .
SERIOUSLY abnormal I’d say? . . . .
Sexuality is a ‘BIG’ thing isn’t it? Which is why I was SERIOUSLY puzzled as a teenager (and well beyond) as to why I was absolutely NOT bothered about not being sexual, never mind of not being interested in exploring these areas. Just NOT bothered AT ALL.
So, of the couple of dozen Conscious Soul Parts that I recovered one held very strong sexual urges or desires that were VERY preoccupying which at some point I obviously did not want . . .
It turned out that in past lives I’d wanted to avoid being in a relationship. MMMMmm how can I put this, I’m very strong valued, impeccably honest and I DON’T mess people around, play games or lead people on. While incarnating in certain cultures in past lives where the people did not ‘quite’ hold to the same I got rather sick of getting involved with women that let’s say I later found could not relate to me on equal ‘value’ terms . . . . So, eh!!! . . . . I decided at some point just to avoid relationship all together (it must have seemed like a good idea at the time!£%!?) . . . but . . .
There is a slight problemo to this decision, because having such strong values means that I in these lives would NOT (and I really would NOT) get sexually involved with someone unless I felt very strongly toward them . . . and sort of deciding to NOT have relationships tends to mean in my case that I wont then be sexual because I KNOW that I WONT take things any further . . .
Which means that becoming sexually attracted under these conditions can become ‘let’s say’ quite ‘distracting’, to say the least, which is why at some point I got rid of the parts of myself that became sexual and sexually attracted and EVEN sexually interested (that must have seemed like a good idea at the time too . . . )
Which sort of caused a different set of problems down stream in future lifetimes through seeming to be totally sexually disengaged and uninterested which particularly in teenage phases saw me at times being severely embarrassed and disturbed particularly through attracting quite a lot of NOT insignificant attention because of my seeming lack of interest . . . which would become severely embarrassing and disturbing to a point where I got rid of the parts of me that reacted in these ways . . .
Hence another form held the build up of my preoccupation, embarrassment and worry about NOT feeling or wanting to be sexual particularly while either having the piss taken out of me . . . or having aspersions cast on my sexual preferences . . .
. . . cough, cough . . . this is not related to these types of soul fragments BUT it is educational and even more important it’s funny . . .
I’ve had people not only ‘think’ BUT even actually mention that they consider I’m ‘gay’ . . . which I’ve always been quite shocked about. I cannot understand why they’d think this as I’m DEFINITELY NOT . . .
So, while in Portugal, where I’ve just said goodbye to my wife (we’d just split up) as she left to return to Brazil I’m travelling around and I end up staying for a week or two at the small seaside port called Lagos. I’ve been making notes of my multidimensional encounters for a few weeks AND interestingly I’m dealing with a lot of ‘entities’ including some of past relationship partners as well as even MORE of the ‘I want to be in a relationship will he / wont he’ types as well as some very determined ‘I REALLY WANT a relationship’ types too . . . . AND some . . . that even more disturbingly seem to be STILL waiting . . .
So, because of this ‘I’M NOT HAVING A RELATIONSHIP’ malarkey decision in previous lives it seems I’ve left quite a few disgruntled females many of whom have WANTED a relationship with me WHOM because I DIDN’T also made an BIG effort to ensure that I’d ABSOLUTELY NOT be with ANYONE ELSE . . . which explained why I and my wife had, had to deal with a constant stream of these types of entities messing with us that we dealt with virtually continuously when we were together . . . so, I’m now dealing with what turns out to be quite a lot of the same from yet more different past life phases . . . breaking the attachments and so on . . .
So, have you got the scene? The first morning in Lagos I head out to the sea front BUT as I step out from the front of my hotel it’s REALLY hot so I go back and swap for my lighter fleece jacket (it was winter) AND also pay the woman at the desk for another day as I go out . . . I notice that she looks at me, then REALLY looks at my fleece jacket, looks back at me with a ‘certain’ look in her eye which I cannot quite place up BUT I store this for future reference . . . MMMMmmm . . . what’s going on here . . .
Down on the sea front on the promenade I’m minding my own business sitting on a bench writing when a guy appears and asks me if I can take a photo using his camera of himself . . . yea . . fine . . no problem . . . except that . . . well!£$%??? . . . how he ‘poses’ for these photo’s is eh!! . . . cough, cough . . . quite interesting . . . and he does seem to want quite a lot of photo’s taken . . . and afterwards he DOES seem a bit persistent making small talk . . . and he eh!! . . . doesn’t seem to be going away very quickly . . . . . AaaaHHH!!!
The fleece I had at that time was an ‘interesting’ colour . . . sort of a ‘particular’ shade of red that if you’ve drunk enough glasses of ‘wine’ you might describe as ‘strawberry’ . . . that’s what the look was about from the woman at the hotel desk, I can only imagine that this colour must be the ‘I’m Gay’ flag either for that place or maybe more globally (I’ve no idea) . . . and the German guy obviously didn’t miss that clue . . . but was probably a bit confused at my lack of response . . . . and then there is all of these past relationship entity types . . .
You know all those ‘barriers’ some ‘energetically’ aware people put around themselves as ‘protection’ . . . well . . . I must have got so sick of all those women trying to attract my interest never mind wanting to have a relationship with me . . . that once again I came up with ANOTHER really REALLY good idea!!! (well, it must have seemed like a good idea at the time . . . ‘yet again’ . . . I’m sure) . . . which was to put up an energetic barrier around myself that basically transmitted ‘I’m GAY’ . . . that sounds like a really GREAT way of trying to stop women from even becoming interested in yourself? . . . doesn’t it? . . . so you can have some peace and quiet . . .
That ‘interesting’ barrier, that’s probably been responsible for quite ‘interesting’ encounters in past lives HAS GONE NOW . . . as has the fleece ‘I’m GAY Flag’ jacket . . . isn’t it strange how so much ‘weirdness’ is sensibly explainable through the REAL existence of past lives and what has been going on IN THEM as opposed to the really bizarre more ‘rational’ explanations that arise though more ‘limited’ understandings . . . that end up looking like a square thing that’s being forced into a star shaped ‘whatsit’ . . .
If you find yourself having ‘inappropriate’ and persistent attractions from others that you are definitely NOT interested or find attractive to yourself as described on this page here.
This can become so annoying that in previous lives you end up using ‘subtle’ means to block and negate these attractions. Despite this perhaps seeming like a good idea at the time his can over a few more lifetimes leave you feeling and actually being sexually disengaged and switched off as described on this page here.
If you have these types of ‘attraction’ problems or worse find yourself attracting people with negative, nasty or belligerent attitudes toward yourself then you can end up making a huge effort in ‘subtle’ terms to avoid all sorts of people. Doing this over a few lifetimes can then have you finding yourself ‘gifted’ with becoming more and more ‘observable’ INVISIBLE to others.
This ‘cloaking’ shield can be so effective that even when you are in PLAIN SIGHT standing right in front of others as described on this page (Being ignored, invisible or not acknowledged by others) which you can read here they still don’t or won’t or cannot engage with yourself no matter how much effort you make to engage with them.
Other example of identifying and clearing ‘subtle’ shit making people forcibly sexually attracted or addicted to porn are given below:
So, not only do you have ‘subtle’ implants defining peoples sexual attractions BUT there is also ‘subtle’ shit making some people addicted to porn too AND more to stop unwanted attractions AND more to keep anyone and everyone away from yourself so that you eventually become an invisible person.
What is your experience of these possibilities? If you can contribute then leave a comment below.