This is page 24 of 26 of an article series on: "Rivalry, Competition and Egotism Between all Group types. How group members beliefs, ideas, ideals & loyalties are managed by hidden subtle means preventing open evaluations & engagement of different conceptual frameworks, ideas & possibilities while limiting openness, change, freewill & diversity. Includes Self Exploration, Inner Awareness Exercises & Examples."
Neither this friend NOR myself were involved in a ‘enlightenment’ path or ANY ‘in life path’ for that matter at this time, nor had we been for MANY, MANY years. 12 years in my case. Particularly in the case of myself I’m designing and building a house, supervising building work, having to be involved on a daily basis with LIFE & LIFE THINGS to do this, while apparently past ‘helping’ so called spiritual guides, help and energies are stupidly ‘helping’ me in COMPLETELY out of context ways with the result that their actions were responsible for sabotaging my current FREE WILL life choices . . . . . .
So, I spent time accessing these past lives. Enough to became aware that I’d followed this particular path many times . . . . . and not only that but with the EXACT same spiritual master each time too . . . . . . in fact I found out I’d achieved ‘enlightenment’ about 14 times . . . . .
. . . quite impressive really apart from a couple of minor points.
You’re told that enlightenment is permanent and releases you from the cycle of rebirth and karma at least this path I’d been part of was supposed to do this . . .
So . . . EH!! . . .
What’s happening then?
Am I just here as a ‘visitor’ in this life then . . . ?
. . . or did I get on the wrong incarnation bus . . . ?
. . . or take a wrong turning . . . ?
. . . or misread an important sign . . . ?
Because it seems like I’m back . . . AGAIN . . . and . . . in fact AGAIN & AGAIN . . .
This enlightenment path was supposed to clear you of ALL your life issues and release you from the karmic tread mill and such like.
WOW . . . . that would be REALLY good . . .
Except, why do I seem to have missed out on this happening?
Maybe it was an administration error . . OR . . maybe that was the day the enlightenment master was just so busy doing a ‘Karmic’ (wink, wink, nudge, nudge . . . . . ) cleansing of a naïve follower that he forgot in the . . . uuuugghghHHAAAAAA . . . excitement?
. . . OR . . . maybe my friend here had been in charge of the ‘final clearing of ALL karmic issues’ department in these lives but he’d got confused and sent the spiritual bus delivering the karmic release workforce back . . . . because he’d forgotten he’d ordered it . . . 14 times . . . no less . . .
That seems . . . a ‘mite’ . . . UNFORTUNATE . . . doesn’t it?
. . as in the mean time I’m still (it seems) perpetually not released from the wheel of Karma during my future rebirths . . . not even a little bitty bit . . .
In this life I actually followed a Guru/Master as part of an enlightenment based meditation path for about 4 years . . . . during which I always had this nagging feeling that . . . . . WELL . . . . . I was just not going to achieve what I REALLY wanted from doing this . . . . AND . . . . . that doing this would NOT make me HAPPY . . . . .
Unfortunately my ‘spiritual’ awakening and abilities to wander around within past lives and other levels did not happen until much later . . . and being a GOOD scientist in these earlier times I was probably ignoring irrational, subtle feeling ‘intuition’ based impulses anyway.
During my time as part of this path when I was thinking about discontinuing with it, another follower confided in me that leaving was probably not a good idea as . . . well . . . maybe bad things would happen to you . . . . .
Like what?
You mean ‘like’ WORSE things than in a future life finding out that you keep becoming enlightened YET AGAIN while in between time you KEEP still living out the same shit this was supposed to have SORTED OUT?
Heads you get ‘enlightened’ . . . and tails . . . you get ‘enlightened’ . . . until you find out that it doesn’t make any difference . . . that’s TRULY an ENLIGHTENING ENLIGHTENMENT!
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME . . . . .